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My gaze raked over his skin, eating up every inch and snagging on every detail. Bubbles surged in my stomach and floated through me freely, my heart rate rising, until my attention stopped short at the space right above those fucking sweatpants. The sight had me absolutely vibrating. Oh my god. The way the V of his lean torso glided into his pants was nothing short of a miracle, and I knew he wasn’t wearing anything underneath.
“You’re gawking, Kai.” Mhm. I was. I wanted to slide those fucking sweatpants down and— “Kai.”
“Huh?” I was quickly smacked back down to earth. Shit. “Sorry. I’ve never, uhm, you… Sorry.”
A beautiful, knowing smile spread across his face. “Careful, Kai. You wouldn’t want to ruin our friendship.”
He was teasing me. The asshole was teasing me. He’d become far too good at that lately, and a tiny, defensive rage burned through me and shot out my mouth. “Funny, Jonah. You do realize these straps on my tank top are pretty loose, right? I could drop them down my shoulders in a second, so why don’t you take that smirk and those sweatpants and shove them up your ass?”
His mouth hung open with both disbelief and amusement, the O of his lips thinning out on the sides with a smile. I stared at that stupid expression for only a moment before I quickly turned and stormed toward the door. It was entirely necessary that I got away from him. My reaction had been too big, but I had to press onward. I was at serious risk of making some incredibly stupid decisions.
“Kai.” My journey to safety was interrupted by the sound of his voice.
I stopped in my tracks, thinking through all the possible reasons he could be calling me back. Did he want me to look at him again? Was he going to tell me to chill the fuck out? Or was he going to tell me to shut the door and fuck me right here and now?
Oh, god.
I spun on my heels and returned my attention to him, trying to let my nerves slick off of me like water. I could save this. I could cover this up.
He chuckled and crinkled his eyebrows. “What’s with the attitude? You know it’s just a joke.”
“Of course, I do,” I said coolly, pulling myself together as best I could and permitting one more quick glance at his hips. Oh dear god, have some fucking mercy.
The look on his face let me know he wasn’t convinced as he inspected me openly. I slit my eyes at him and crossed my arms. He copied me and crossed his own as merriment welled in his features, locking us in a stare-off I didn’t know how to feel about.
“You wouldn’t know what to do with me anyway,” I blurted.
His face dropped. Ha! I win. I stuck my tongue out and once again began walking toward the door when a strong hand on my forearm spun me around. My back landed against the wall with a thud. Jonah loomed over me, bracing himself on the surface behind me.
An aching feeling crawled up my body as I observed the bare chest in front of my eyes, the neck, the tight jaw which clenched with either frustration or nerves. His gentle hand lifted my chin, and my gaze was met with that beautiful, green stare.
“What makes you think that?” he whispered.
“I…” I attempted to speak but my words lodged in my throat. After pushing down a hard swallow, I tried again. “It was just a joke.” I flicked him a weak smile. Never in a thousand years did I ever believe I’d be in this situation, and never in a million would I ever have expected him to be the calm one.
“Was it?” He looked at my lips and pushed a strand of hair behind my ear.
I nodded quickly in response.
“Maybe it was.” His voice was so low it practically brought me to my knees, and I suddenly couldn’t fathom ever not finding this person attractive. How had I not noticed all this time? Had he always been like this? “But I still think you should know…” The fingers that had so delicately moved my hair tickled my skin as they trailed to my collarbone. He gripped my neck and twisted his wrist, forcing my head to turn to the side with a strong thumb. He leaned close to my ear to finish his statement, and I felt his murmur both on my ear and between my legs. “Just because I choose not to do it with everyone, doesn’t mean I don’t know how to.”
I believed him. For the first time in years, I got the feeling that the person touching me might’ve actually known what the fuck they wanted to do with me, and I was desperate to see it for myself. But I couldn’t even produce an answer to what he’d just said. How does one deal with the prospect of fucking the person they grew up with? Playful games and wrestling matches were much more doable than…sex.
He dragged his lips over my hot skin, running them from my temple to my cheekbone. “You’ve been different lately, my beautiful girl.”
“No. That’s crazy.” Though it was entirely true. My hands begged to jump out and grab him, but I forced them to stay put at my sides.
“I don’t need to have sex with everyone I see to know how to take my time with the person in front of me and listen to what their body wants—needs—from me.” He backed away to once again lock eyes with mine.
“Will you show me?” I asked quietly.
His eyebrows twitched with what I read as surprise, and my mouth ran dry. Was my question an overstep? He had slammed me against the wall, hadn’t he?
He took my head in his hands, shaking his own back and forth softly to deny my request, and I was left without his touch as he turned away. Approaching his computer chair, he pulled a shirt off the back of it and put it on. “Close the door. I need to talk to you about something.”
Tension balled in my stomach, inching up through my throat and preventing my mouth from closing fully. I silently did as he said and hoped I was hiding my feelings well enough in the process.
“Don’t be nervous.” His voice was as smooth as ever, though his jaw feathered as he looked at me. “This is important to me.”
