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He rode me around the property for a while. I always loved the feeling of the wind in my hair as he sped over the hard paths. It felt like I was flying. The one time I’d been on the open road with Deacon especially. Even with a helmet, I’d never felt more free in my life.
All too soon the ride ended and Deacon pulled up outside the little house we’d been given. I should have been excited. This was the moment I’d been waiting for. To be at the house with the intention of having sex with Deacon. Only, I knew that wasn’t going to happen. He hadn’t given me his property cut. So, whatever came next wasn’t going to be welcomed.
He helped me remove my helmet and lashed it to the back of his bike. Then he took my hand and we went inside.Deacon locked the door but stood with his hands on the door, his forehead against the wood.
Carefully, I placed a hand on his back. “What’s going on, Deacon?” My voice was so soft I wasn’t sure if he’d heard me, but after letting out a deep breath, Deacon turned to face me.
“You know I love you, right, Apple?”
I nodded. “Yes. I know.”
“Then I need you to trust me. I’m going to have to wait to give you your property cut.”
“Why?” I tried to keep my voice steady, but I was very near tears. “This was the plan. We were going to be together.”
“We will be, Apple. I just need a year. One year. Use it to spend time with your sister doing stuff young women your age normally do.”
“What is this, Deacon? I don’t want to go on trips or to parties unless it’s with you.”
“Honey, there is something I have to take care of. It’s going to require I be gone a lot over the next several months. I don’t think it’s fair to ask you to wait for me.”
“Wait…” Dread washed through me and I shook my head. “Are you… are you breaking up with me?”
“One year, Apple. Give me a year. If you haven’t found someone you want more than me, I’ll be home and I’ll beg you to take me back.”
“Are you going to be with other women?”
“Honey, I swear to you, I’ve not been with another woman since I made a commitment to you. Not in the whole three years since I’ve known you. That’s not going to change. Not as long as you’re not in a relationship.”
I watched him for a long time, studying his expression. His eyes. Looking for anything that might give me some hint as to what was going on. I found nothing.
With a sigh, I nodded. “I’ll be waiting on you when youcome home. I don’t want this to be the end.”
He gave me a gentle smile. “It won’t. I promise.”
“Why did you want us to come here? If you’re not giving me your cut yet, are we still, uh, are we going to sleep together?”
“We’re not going to have sex tonight, honey. But I want to spend the night with you. I want to hold you all night while you sleep.”
“We can still make love, Deacon. I want you.”
“I want you too, honey. But I have to leave in the morning. I’m not sure when I’ll be back, and even when I am, I might not be able to stay long. I’m not using this as an excuse to take what I want without committing to you.” He cupped my face in both his hands, leaning over to brush a tender kiss over my lips. “I’m going to hold you while you sleep. You’re going to give me this one night. After I leave, we’ll revisit us in a year.”
“I’ll wait, Deacon. Just… try to talk to me as much as you can? Make sure to see me whenever possible?”
He smiled reassuringly at me. “I promise to do everything possible to stay in contact with you, Applejack.”
I took him at his word. He held me all night long. With Deacon wrapped around me, I’d never slept so well as I did that night. Sure, I woke occasionally, but only to shift my position. Always, Deacon whispered softly to me until I dozed back off. It was paradise.
* * *
The next few months, Deacon called me at least once a week. Then it backed off to once every other week. By the time our year was up, I hadn’t talked to him the entire last two months before he’d promised he’d be home.
It was another two months before he finally came back to Iron Tzars MC. When he did, Deacon wasn’t the same person he’d been when he’d left.
Chapter One
Deacon
