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I squeezed him tighter.
“I don't mind.”
“But I do!”
He pulled back to look at me, the moonlight making him look like he was painted blue. His eyes, wide and worried, still glinted purple.
“I'm afraid.”
“Lili...”
“What if it takes days and we don't make it all the way back?”
“That wont?—”
“Addy, if something is wrong with me and I die?—”
“Don't say that!”
“I don't know if traveling like this is safe. I don't know if this heat is safe. I thinkhow I'm feeling is normal, but what if it's not?”
I could barely breathe as his fears became my own.
If he died...
“If I die, you will too. That's what scares me the most. And the beautiful life that I've envisioned for us will never have a chance to become reality.”
I shut my eyes and pulled him against my chest, holding him tightly.
“We are both still here right now,” I said, reminding us both. “We can hold each other and feel each other's hearts beating.”
He squeezed me as I said it and I felt a little bit better. Better enough anyway to draw back just far enough to look him in the eyes.
“You are right. For all we know, there is nothing unusual happening to you. Have you known any other pregnant omegas?”
“One, but I was much too young to pay very much attention. I did speak to Alex a few times while he was pregnant with Aurora, but he is a very pleasant person and if he had any issues, he didn't say.”
I nodded, thinking back. I didn't know Saar or Alex very well, but I knew that Saar was a very decent alpha and had only heard good things about his human mate. Despite that, it had annoyed me that Alex was even on our planet once the humans had started to change things but that was something that made me feel shame now.
“So, we don't have any experience with pregnancies.”
Alil nodded, looking thoughtful now, instead of panicked.
“I know it is supposed to be difficult, and that omegas do often get sick at the start.”
“Well, that's comforting, isn't it?”
“Yes, it's just that I don't know how much of this is normal.”
“Then let's assume it is all normal,” I suggested. “And if it is not, we will deal with that when we get to Diwan.”
Alil took a deep breath, held it for a moment with his eyes closed and then nodded, finally releasing it.
“You're right,” he finally said. “I'm sick, I'm worried about what will happen to us, and I'm cold, so my mind went into a panic about losing everything; my health, the baby, you.”
“You'll never lose me. We made sure of that with this.”
I pressed my lips to his, reminding him of our unbreakable mating bond. Our souls were one now and I knew quite completely that I could not love without him. Even if the bond would allow us to be apart, I couldn't handle it. Just as I was grounding Alil right now, he did that for me. In a matter of weeks, I already felt like I had become a better, more complete person. And I had Alil's introspective nature guiding me to thank for that.
