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“That was for Thomas. Continue your fucking games on him and I will make sure it’s the last thing you do. You got your poisonous little fingernails into Dom. Keep them there. Thomas is off limits. Either you let him off your leash, or I’ll tell him and Dom all your dirty little secrets, and we both know I can, bitch.”
“Damn it, Thea?—”
“Fuck off, Dom. You deserve her. You need to man-up, claim your whore, and stop letting her hurt Thomas.”
There’s so much hate unmasked on her face that it’s painful to look at. I stand still for a minute, watching her go. Then, I go to help Gabby, trying to ignore the fact that I still taste Thea on my lips…
Thea
Pain attacks me. It’s cutting away inside of me. It hits so hard that I struggle to breathe. I can’t go back out to my party. It’s impossible. Besides, I never wanted to be here in the first place. Once, long ago, I enjoyed being around people and attending parties and stuff.
Not now.
Since I screwed my leg up, I find that the fewer people I’m around, the better. I know I’m starting to isolate myself. I have to stop. That’s part of the reason I want to go to New York. This agency that wants me says the fact that I walk with a limp and have scars won’t come into play as much as I think it will. I don’t see how it can’t, but I want to try.
Mostly, I just want to get the hell out of Kentucky and away from Dominic West.
I like to think that I’m a strong, intelligent, independent woman. I mostly always have been. My little sister is the crazy one. I weigh my options and do my best never to react with emotion. Dad says I get it from Mom. I can see that because she’s a doctor. Yet, she can also be emotional as hell. Mom says I get it from my father, and that I certainly believe. Dad is an enforcer for the Savage MC. It’s the biggest MC in Kentucky. Hell, their reputation is so solid that other MCs are either trying to be allies or scared to breathe around them—which in the MC world is a good thing.
Right now, emotion is definitely winning over common sense. Then again, whenever Dominic West is involved, that’s usually the case. I have been in love with that man since I was a kid. Dom doesn’t know. I won’t ever let him know. Besides, it wouldn’t do me any good. Dom is, and always has been, in love with Gabby, the reigning MC princess of the Devil’s Blaze club. I think the bitch—and she is a bitch—must have a golden snatch or some shit, because not only does she have Dom wrapped around her finger, but also his brother and my best friend—Thomas.
I want to shake both of them until sense returns to their brains. Unfortunately, I’m not struck dumb by Gabby’s so-called beauty. The girl is rotten clean through. There’s a stink about her that I can detect, even if none of the males in my assorted family can see or smell it.I’ve given up hope of them ever growing a brain—or at least thinking with the one in their skulls and not their dicks.
The fact that Thomas buys Gabby’s bullshit doesn’t bother me as much as Dom. Thomas’s confidence with women is nonexistent, and Gabby uses that. So, for the most part, I can excuse his stupidity.Dom doesn’t have that excuse. He has always thought he was God’s gift to women. There are days I pray that I’m around to see the bastard get his heart torn out. It seems only fair since he’s repeatedly broken my heart. The worst thing about all of this is, I do love the asshole. I have since I was nothing more than a silly girl with her head full of romance novels. I guess, in a way, I’m no better than Dom. The only difference between us is that I do think with my brain. It’s just my heart that refuses to cooperate.
After the kiss we just shared, I know my feelings are going to get in the way even more. That’s why I have to leave here. I have to get away. I don’t have a choice anymore. I can’t tell my baby sister. She and I are oil and water. My big brother, Mattie, is out of the question too. I can’t tell Dad. He and I are super close. I’m definitely closer to him than Mom, but some things, a big, brawny MC Enforcer—who loves his daughter more than anything in the world—just can’t understand. That, and he’d probably kill Dom, which would piss off Uncle Dragon—Dom’s father.
Please don’t get it twisted. I am not related to Dom. I may have mental issues when it comes to the guy, but not that. The club is all one big non-blood-related family. My father, Bull, and Dragon are not brothers by blood, but they have forged together by what they’ve survived and what they’ve built, and I believe those brotherly bonds might be more important. I can’t see my father ever cutting out Dragon’s heart like Dom is doing to Thomas.
I sigh. I know it’s my party, but I need to get out of here.
I force my uneven steps to slow, trying to minimize the attention my limp gets. I go back into the party, wishing I could be anywhere else. My eyes scan the people and before anyone can notice me, I make a beeline for my mom.
My mother is beautiful, with red, copper hair that falls in silken waves. Her skin is pale ivory and covered with freckles. She has eyes that have the unique ability to either fill you with warmth or send a chill down your spine—depending on her mood. She’s vibrant, fiery, and independent, yet totally devoted to my dad and to her children. She’s the most composed, put-together person I know.
“Mom,” I whisper, my heart squeezing inside my chest as I make it to her.
“Thea? What’s wrong, honey?” she asks, knowing immediately that something is. She puts her hands on each side of my face and stares into my eyes. I know she can see the unshed tears that I’m struggling to contain. Maybe she can see the smeared lipstick. There’s a chance my mom can even see the panic in my eyes. She’s a mom and a doctor. Not much ever escapes her notice. I’m not sure exactly what she realizes, because the truth is I’m a mess. What I do know is that she pulls me away from the party, and quietly leads me to the room that she and my father share here at the club when they stay.We have our own house, but we also each have a room here at the club. Admittedly, I have never used mine. I don’t feel comfortable here. I haven’t in a long time.
Now, I really don’t.
“What happened?” Mom asks as she ushers me to the bed. I sit down on the corner of the mattress and Mom sits next to me. The entire time she keeps hold of my hand and I’m glad. I need that connection right now. I’m hurting, confused, and scared.
“Dom…”
I whisper his name, my conscience dripping with guilt that somehow bleeds through in my voice. I love him. I’ve always loved him. He’s not mine. He’ll never be mine, and I’m just a fool.
“Oh, honey,” Mom whispers, pulling me into her body. Willingly, I let her, sobbing as her arms hold me tightly. I might be seventeen today, but right now, in my mom’s arms, I’m a little kid needing her to make the hurt go away. She holds me, just letting me cry. I don’t even know how long. I can’t seem to get control, even though I truly do try.
“I don’t want to love him, Mom. I don’t even know why I do.” I confess in between sobs. The words break and come out in puffs of angry breaths, but she understands them.
“Sometimes the heart wants what the heart wants. That’s just a sad fact of life no one wants to discuss—at least not when it involves pain.”
“Yeah, well, my heart is stupid.”
“It’s not, baby. Sometimes, it takes longer for men to realize they should think with their brains and not their dick.”
“I want to hate him. Part of me does,” I mutter, finally getting a little bit of control and pulling back.
