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I pace restlessly, unable to hold myself still as the reality of the situation settles over me.
I fell in love with her. Mind, body, and fucking soul. She became my reason for breathing, and I don’t know how to live without her.
Maybe I could move to Boston. Keep an eye on her. Stay in her life in any way she allows me to. There’s a chance if she still sees me that she’ll give us another shot. Or perhaps that’s wishful thinking.
I drop into one of the outdoor armchairs and stare out at the city below. How am I meant to live without my heart?
A door opens, but I can’t drag my eyes away from the small park below. Children play, their parents watching them as theyexplore the playground. If only I’d succeeded in getting her pregnant. Then she couldn’t leave me. She would be forced to stay by my side for the sake of our child, and I could live with that. Eventually, she would come to love me like I love her. We could be a family.
“Doc?” Isla’s uncertain voice drags my attention away from the park and I find her with her arms wrapped around herself, my shirt hitting her mid-thigh and her bare legs trembling under the cold.
“What are you doing out here?” I snap. “You’re going to catch a cold.”
She rolls her eyes and closes the distance between us. “I was kidnapped, stabbed, and almost raped. I don’t think a cold is my biggest problem right now.”
Carefully, she lowers herself into the chair across from me, but she can’t mask the pain in her eyes as she sits.
“You shouldn’t be out of bed.”
“Why’d you leave?” she asks, ignoring my concern.
“It was getting a little crowded in there.”
“Liar.”
I sigh and drop my head into my hands. This isn’t a conversation I’m ready to have, not when I’ve only just realized that I’m about to lose her, but she’s not going to give me a choice. Isla is relentless when she wants to know something, and she’s not going to allow me to sidestep her questions for long.
“You’re going to leave.” The words come out in a whisper.
“What?”
“There’s no reason for you to stay in Chicago with me. You’re safe here now. This is where your friends and your family are.”
Silence follows, and for long seconds I wonder if she’s going back inside, but then a toned thigh appears in my vision as she presses it to the couch on one side of my legs. She lifts the otheruntil she’s straddling me, forcing me to look up and meet her eyes.
“You think there’s nothing for me in Chicago?”
Vulnerable is not a feeling I’ve felt often in my life, but that’s the only thing I can put down to the discomfort in my chest as I stare up into her amber eyes.
Her tiny hands come up to rest on my chest, and I can’t help myself. I wrap my arms around her, drawing her in until there’s no space between us. It’s probably not a good idea because it will only hurt more when she leaves, but I’ll hold her for as long as I can.
“It’s okay, spitfire. I understand. This is your home, this is where your life is. The only reason you ever came to Chicago was so you could be safe, and now that’s not a problem anymore.”
She shakes her head, a small smile playing on her lips. “My home is wherever you are, Doc. If that’s in Chicago, that’s where I’m going to be.”
I stare at her for long seconds, processing the words that she’s just spoken like they’ll start making sense the longer I look at her.
“I love you, Doc. I love you with every single beat of my heart. I love you when you’re overbearing and when you’re grumpy. I love you when you do crazy shit like come on me in my sleep, and I love you when you show me the sweet side of you I know is only for me.”
I crush my lips against hers, suddenly desperate to taste her, and tug her tighter against me. She’s hurt and I need to be mindful of that, but I need her.
Isla shifts in my lap, her hand slipping between us to the band of my sweatpants as she tugs them down enough for my aching cock to pop out.
“Spitfire, you’re hurt,” I murmur between kisses. I nip at the soft pillows, desperate for the little gasps she gives me with the bite of pain.
“I don’t care.”
Isla grinds her hips over mine as she shoves her panties to the side and notches me at her entrance. I should stop this, or at the very least warm her up, but I couldn’t stop this even if I wanted to. I’m just as desperate for her as she is for me.
