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I was certainly afraid.
Not for my physical safety, but for something else.
Because even if I’d just convinced myself that I deserved to feel this happiness, it wasn’t easy to ignore the nerves I felt building in my belly as unwanted thoughts crept into my mind.
Tearing my mouth from his, I stared up at him, and we were both breathing heavily. He had a look in his eyes that told me he had been feeling so much of the same I had been. It was clear Griffin was just as ready to get lost in me, too.
So, I did the only thing I could think to do and blurted, “I’m scared.”
Those two words caught him by surprise. Griffin tipped his head to the side, concern marring his features, and asked, “What are you afraid of?”
“You,” I revealed. “I’m afraid of you, and I’m afraid of how fast things are moving between us. Because I want you, Griffin. I want more than we’ve had with each other, and I’m worried I’m moving too fast. I’m worried I might be making a mistake.”
His body relaxed, and his features softened. Bringing his hands to my hips, Griffin said, “There’s no rush. I want this with you as much as you’re telling me you want this with me, maybe even more than that. But we’re not going to do it at your expense. If you don’t feel comfortable, if you need more time, we will wait.”
“You wouldn’t mind?” I asked.
He shook his head. “No. I will wait until you are ready, until you’re sure of me.”
Griffin was a good man.
No.
No, he wasn’t just a good man.
He was handsome and kind and generous. He was athletic and adventurous. And he made me laugh. He made me confident.
Maybe I already was sure of him. Maybe stopping us was the brief lapse in judgment and not the other way around.
“I think I am sure of you,” I confessed.
His eyes roamed over my face, and he smiled at me. “You need to be confident in that, Indy. You’re the only one who’s going to make this decision. No matter what you decide, I’ll be happy with what we had today.”
I licked my lips.
The thought of not having this with him made something squeeze in my chest, and I had a feeling Griffin saw my reaction.
“I won’t tell you what to do, and I’m not going to force you,” he started. “But if what you’re saying is true and you’re confident in the man I am, this isn’t about me. It’s about you thinking this is risky. And sometimes, that’s what life is. It’s about taking risks and reaping rewards. It’s crazy to think we’d willingly go where we could wind up stranded and alone, but I’m not joking when I say I believe it’s worth it to chase the storm. Because even if there’s a chance we’re making a mistake, there’s also a chance that something better awaits us. I don’t know about you, but I’d hate to live my life missing out on opportunities that would lead me to a life better than I ever dreamed of having.”
He was right.
Everything he was saying was right.
I could stop this, pull back, and keep myself safe from harm. But what would I be giving up in the process?
“I think I want this.”
Shaking his head, he insisted, “You have to know you want it, sugar. That’s the only way it’s going to be good. It’s the only way you’re going to fully enjoy it.”
I held his gaze, my heart pounding wildly in my chest. “I want you to make love to me, Griffin,” I whispered.
“Are you sure?”
I nodded. “Yes.”
At that, no more words needed to be spoken. My tone was clear, my desire evident. Griffin dropped his mouth to mine, started kissing me again, and lifted me in his arms. He carried me back toward the bed and continued to kiss me as he leaned my back against the bottom edge of it.
Tearing his mouth from mine, he drove one hand into my hair and angled my head back, granting himself better access to my neck. His lips touched the skin of my throat, effortlessly sending chills all over my body that had nothing to do with the cold weather outside.
