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“Come on, don’t make me regret trying to save your ass,” she growls as she grabs my hand. She forces me into motion, pushing people away and making her way through the crowd.
The industrial light in the hallway doesn’t even blind me anymore. I’m so numb, I’m scared at how numb I am.
I’m a problem solver, I’m a down to earth solving machine who is constantly in search of explanations. My brain simply cannot process what just happened. It doesn’t work, the scenario is broken, the problem unsolvable.
I’m bugging out. My brain is overheating, desperate to find a solution that means Jake is not dead.
As soon as we’re outside, voices call after us.
“Fuck,” Billie curses. “Fuck. Fuck. Jamie…RUN.”
Her hand is still holding mine as she breaks into a run. My feet are forced to follow and we both sprint.
My lungs are burning, and my legs feel like jelly when we stop. We’re in a dark alley that can’t even fit two people standing next to each other. I’m not even scared. So what if we’re being chased by Wolves? Kill me for all I care.
The alley is made of brick walls on either side of us and Billie is leaning against one of them, holding her ribs as she tries to catch her breath.
She faces me. “We almost fucking died!”
I shake my head, incapable of formulating anything.
“You need to catch up, Jamie. I know…I know this is hard.” Her own voice breaks. “But it happened.”
The silence stretches for far too long.
“No,” I finally whisper.
“Yes,” she insists. Tears run down her face as she puts both her hands on my shoulders. “He’s gone, Jamie. I’m sorry.”
A thousand thoughts run through my rational mind.
“But…” I attempt to talk. A sob suddenly rises.
No, no, no. Don’t cry. If you cry, it’s real. And it’s not real.
“Who’s going to tell Rose,” I finally say.
And that’s when it hits me.
Jake is dead.
“Oh my God,” I explode crying. My legs give up under me and I fall to the floor. “Who’s going to tell her?” I sob. “He was almost out…Nathan was going to…and Chris…Chris will lose it. Luke…but Rose can’t take it…she will, she will…”
“Ssh,” she crouches in front of me and rubs my shoulders, but her face is streaked with tears. “I’m sorry,” she whispers.
“I can’t…I can’t, it hurts.” I grab at my chest, at my belly, everything hurts. I can’t breathe. I’m choking. I think I’m choking. “It hurts, it hurts, it hurts…Jake…” I wail.
It comes from deep in my soul. I need him right now. I need him.
“Jamie, I’m so sorry,” she cries with me. “You’re strong, it’s going to be okay.”
I can’t reply, I just scream. I scream from the physical pain currently burying itself in my soul. I scream because this is too much, I couldn’t take anymore. Life threw its last twist at me, and I couldn’t take it.
“Ssh, ssh,” Billie says as she grabs me closer to her. “I know this hurts, baby. I know. But please, you need to keep quiet. The Wolves have sent the Kings after us right now. The Bianco Family lost an important fight, and the night is turning into a fucking hunt for North Shore Crew and anyone else affiliated with Bianco. We need to keep low right now. If they find us…” I hear her gulp and it slightly calms my cries.
I want to die right now, but I’m not allowed to take someone down with me.
“Leave me here,” I rasp. “Just leave me, please.”
