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I’m so awake I could run the marathon.
My brain refuses to shut down, sever its connection to the outside world and take me to a place of quietude.
I miss my home.
I miss the cold winter nights when I’d put my flannel pajamas on, listen to music, train my eyes on the window, and stare at the piles of snow, the street, the frozen trees, and Kai’s house.
The silence in the room would surely do the trick, unlike here.
This is a delicious hell. An unusual hell too.
Everything is so beautiful, so clean, so fresh. The perfect destination for a few hours of shut-eye, yet it completely eludes me.
I feel the tension in my muscles. The silent tapping of annoyance in my fingers and my feet. I feel the tingles running up and down, confused. That is the word.
Confused.
My body is confused, as if my brain processes mixed messages that cancel each other out.
The night has morphed into a new day, and I’m tenser than a thread of wire pulled too tight.
It’s the sexual tension and the emotional rollercoaster. The psychological riddle that my brain has a hard time deciphering.
I need to sleep more than I need to figure out things now, and I just can’t.
I’m tense, furious, annoyed, and… amused?
I make no sense.
I try to touch myself to get myself off.
It irritates me to no end. Forget about getting aroused or picturing myself sandwiched between the three men.
I can’t. I just can’t. My brain refuses to put Kai in front of me and Alejandro behind me. Nudge Alejandro’s hands to my body and connect Kai’s eyes to my face.
It doesn’t care about making me ride Francisco’s shaft. Or having them take turns on me while fucking me from behind.
It’s like the men can’t be in the same room with me, not even in my head.
This is strange and unrealistic because it will happen in real life at some point. But right now, it doesn’t, so my imagination is useless.
Fuck it.
I yank the covers to the side and sit on the edge of the bed, my elbows connected to my knees and my cheeks pressed into my hands.
If I sit like that for long, I can feel the battle in my body. No matter how much I need to rest, I am hopelessly restless.
This couldn’t happen at a worse moment.
I need a few good hours of sleep. I can’t just go through the day like a zombie before facing them tonight.
It will be a disaster.
I’m a ball of unresolved issues right now and a ticking device about to go off at any moment.
I push to my feet, grab my robe from the chair and slide it on before moving my focus to the table. I can’t drink coffee, but I could eat and make some phone calls.
Talking to Giana or Isla might help.
