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I expected him to keep going but he didn’t, he slid out of me and climbed off the bed. My eyes landed on his thick dick still glistening with my juices. He stood at the edge of the bed just watching me intently like he was trying to figure something out. The confliction shined bright into his eyes.

“You should let me meet your daughter real soon, I’m her dad now. I’m about to call my momma, give her this address so she can come talk to you. I think she can help you understand me better. Go shower and get dressed.” He walked out the room as I sat up still feeling high from our love making. That was very random and unexpected of Matthew but I was learning that it was how he operated.

I wasn’t ready for him to meet Heaven and I didn’t know if I was even ready for something serious. I felt our chemistry but I was fresh out of a long and abusive relationship. I felt like I needed to see what it would be like being a single mother and providing for Heaven on my own.

Matthew walked back into the room with his boxers on, I still sat in the middle of the bed confused. He got in the bed and laid his head back onto the pillow and closed his eyes.

“I’m taking those crazy pills. Shit gone make me fall asleep in a minute.” He rubbed his large hand down his face as he sighed hard like he was frustrated.

“Umm Matthew?” I cautiously called for his attention.

“Yea Pray?”

“I think we need to slow things down, I barely know you and it’s the same for me with you.” I wanted him to open his eyes to look me and mine but he kept his eyes shut.

“Doesn’t matter, I know everything there is to know and I can learn more along the way. You belong to me now Praylah, once I slid inside of you, I discovered that I need you in order to breathe right. That’s some deep ass shit ain’t it?” He opened his eyes and looked into mine, every time our eyes connected my chest tightened. The chemistry and magnetic energy between us was pretty intense to say the least.

His eyes moved me in a way that it felt spell bound, he didn’t have to say much because his eyes had so much to say.

“I’ll kill to keep you.” He gave me an icy look and I knew he meant that in the literal sense which scared me to death.

“I think that’s a bit much. I just got out of a relationship and I-”

“Stop talking Pray. I don’t need to get mad right now.” He warned.

I got quiet and thought about all the times that Jarei tried to shut me up. I didn’t like that I felt weak and unable to stand up for myself and make myself clearer. It’s like I got Jarei comfortable with walking all over me and treating me wrong.

“If I make you mad… whats going to happen? I have every right to express myself and as a single woman that’s just what I plan on doing.” I spoke the fuck up for once and actually felt good about it.

Matthew’s only response was soft snoring, he already tapped out of the conversation that fast. I guess whatever medication that he was on really had him tired. I eyed his body, even with a limp dick tucked off in his briefs it was massive in size.

Getting up from the bed, I made my way into the bathroom to shower and get myself dressed for the day. After taking my medicine and throwing on a maxi dress, I slipped into my sandals and called my mom letting her know that I would be picking Heaven up around dinner time. My mom and dad asked to keep Heaven for one more day. I selfishly wanted to say no. I missed my baby and needed her close to me. I begrudgingly agreed for the extra day only because I felt like it was time for me to get the hell away from Matthew.

A part of me didn’t want to but I knew I needed time to just be alone and becoming dependent and accepting his help would mean that I would be under his control. He never brought up everything he was doing he really gave me my space. It had me bugging out and complaining because he didn’t call or come around but now that we finally had sex and he was actually here saying all of these things, I was starting to become scared.

I called my best friend to see how did her night go. It was very unlike her to leave the club with a stranger like she did last night. Although I was so focused on all the attention Matthew was giving me last night. I could still see the chemistry that her and Soulful had.

“Hello?” She sounded groggy like she just woke up. I sat on the couch and kicked my feet up on the glass table. My body felt refreshed and I was in a good mood besides the conversation that I tried to have with Matthew.

“You want me to call you back?”

“Girl no, I needed to talk to someone anyway.” I could hear Era readjusting herself.

“I fucked up Praylah.” She sadly stated and I simpered right along with her.

“I fucked up too and I think me and Heaven need to come live with you.” I hated to impose but I didn’t have anyone else. My parents would only be judgmental and if they did turn around and let me move back in with them. They would end up trying to control everything there was attached to me including the way that I raised Heaven.

“You know you don’t even have to ask I want you guys to come here and live.” Relief washed over me. I wanted to hop up now and go grab my keys and clothes and leave right now. I felt like I was speeding into a crash course with Matthew and didn’t want to experience more problems on top of the ones I already had.

“Thank you so much Era, you know I will give you some money on rent too. I have money saved since Matthew hasn’t asked me for any here.”

“Girl please, just put food in the house and you can give me whatever you can on utilities. You got my God baby to take care of.” I smiled at that, Era was always generous and caring.

“Thank you so much Era, I really appreciate you.” She told me no problem and how I didn’t have to thank her. Her voice sounded so sad and now I was curious to know what was bothering her so bad.

“Now tell me how you fucked up?” I was ready to hear this because Era always had things together. She never messed up things it was always the opposite with her.

“I fucked a fine ass married man. I don’t know why I didn’t really look into him. I feel like a home wrecker. You know how I felt about Devin fucking on a bitch and here I am being the chick that messes with another woman’s man. A married one at that.” She sniveled, indicating that she was now crying.