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“Have a seat, Andy.” He leaned back as he waited for me to do what he asked.
Which I did. “Where’s Archer?” I hadn’t seen Killian and Matthais’s son in some time. He was adorable, a mini version of Killian with his dark curly hair and big blue eyes. He even had the dimples to match.
“With Dean,” Killian answered. “What are your intentions with Leo? Do you want him back, or are you just going to jerk his chain?
My jaw dropped. “I wouldn’t...What are you talking about? I love Leo. You need to leave.” I got to my feet.
“Sit down, Andy,” Killian demanded. “Do not make me tell your father that you’ve been drinking. With your underage brother.”
I slowly sank back into my chair.
“Babe, take Lucas outside.” Killian blew his husband a kiss before he turned back to me. “Now listen to me and listen good. Whatever you’re doing, knock it the fuck off. If you want Leo, then you fix the mistake you made. If you don’t, then youleave him alone. Do you understand me? And no more fucking drinking.”
My chin quivered as I tried to find words to answer. “I’m sorry.” God, why did I keep saying that over and over again? It wasn’t going to fix the mistakes I had made. It wouldn’t take back the words I said or the way I’d hurt the man I loved.
“Don’t apologize to me,” Killian said, worry lines written all over his face. “Leo loves you, Andy. I’m pretty sure that he’s always loved you. Don’t be an asshole. Fix whatever you did.”
I nodded. “I’m trying. I...How did you win Matthias back?”
“The first thing I did was tell the world I loved him. Then, after a couple of screw-ups, I got help. I went to rehab, I started seeing a therapist, and even though I’ve had a couple of setbacks, I always made sure Matthias knew I loved him. That he was it for me. And I would continue to fight to be the best person I could be.” Killian gave me a shy smile, his eyes full of unshed tears.
I took a shaky breath. “I broke up with him because Ford thought it was a good idea. He said that the three of us should go on the road together unattached. We could have so much fun together. That having someone back home would only hold me down, and I believed him.” Tears slipped down my cheeks. “I was stupid. So fucking stupid, and I’ve done nothing but regret it ever since.”
“I take it your fathers don’t know.”
“Uh, no. And I don’t want them to. About any of this.”
Killian climbed from his chair, went to the freezer, and took out the vodka. “No more of this.” He quickly emptied the contents into the sink. “Is there more?”
“It wasn’t even mine,” I assured him, then realized that I had outed my brother. “Lucas is going to be pissed.”
Killian chuckled as he shook his head. “Your brother isn’t my problem at the moment.” He leaned against the counter. “You need to talk to Leo, then you need to talk to your parents.” Heheld up a hand when I started to object. “And maybe consider therapy.”
“Why does everyone keep telling me that?” I groaned and dropped my head back.
Killian snorted. “Maverick’s smart, Andy. You need to listen to him.”
Speaking of, I could hear my father as he laughed, his high-pitched squeal following behind it, which meant that Pop was home, too. “Thanks.”
“I’m here if you need anything. No questions asked,” Killian told me. “Oh, and you might want to brush your teeth. Mav is going to smell that a mile away.”
I felt sick when I realized I was going to have to tell everyone the truth. Leo was going to be so mad at me for listening to Ford and so was Dad. But now I realized that I wanted the whole truth to come out so I could move on.
Hopefully, that would be with Leo.
Chapter Seventeen
Andy
There was no toothpaste in the guesthouse, but there was mouthwash. I figured that had to come from Lucas. I managed to get rid of the alcohol smell before I went outside, then stopped to take in the scene before me. Dad was sitting on Pop’s lap, big surprise, while they talked with Matthias and Killian. I took a second to watch the four of them, the smiles on their faces and the laughter that filled the air. How Killian made sure he was always touching his husband, just like my dads were always doing to one another. I wanted that. I wanted Leo with me and wanted him to look at me the way he used to. With stars, hearts, and smiling face emojis glittering at me.
“Hey, kiddo,” Dad called to me.
I reluctantly headed his way. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to spend time with my parents; it was just that I had so much going on in my head. Things I was terrified of sharing with anyone except Leo.
I tentatively sat down by the pool, removing my shoes, pulling up my pants, and dropping my feet in. It was soothing, the way the water swirled around my ankles and smoothed over my skin. I leaned back on my hands and raised my face up to the sun, my eyes slipping closed.
“Someday.” Leo giggled as he paddled past me in the pool. I kept my gaze pinned on the tight pink shorts he had on. They accented his body in the most beautiful way. “Someday, you and I are going to have our own pool. One that we spend hours in every single day.”
