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“It’s everything. I’m not even sure I want to marry Noah. Nothing has improved over the last month. He tries, but I’m miserable and I’ve been hiding it from him.”
JC takes me by the hand and leads me to the couch. I don’t know why, but I start crying. He’s so tender and sweet to me. I press my face to his chest and cry. He holds me until I stop. JC swipes his thumbs across my cheeks and uses his shirttail as a tissue to wipe the mascara that’s blackened underneath my eyes. Then he does something I didn’t expect. He kisses me.
I’m caught up in the softness of his lips, and I respond. He presses harder and his tongue spears into my mouth, moist and hot. Before I know it, I’m stretched out under him and we’re making out as if we’re at a drive-in movie. My belly clenches and I can feel his growing erection pressing against my thigh.
I want him, and I’m not sure if it’s because I haven’t had sex in a month, want to get Noah even for what he did or just because I want JC to fuck me. We have to stop, and I try with all my might to push him away. He finally realizes what I’m doing, sliding off me and sitting up.
“I can’t. If I do this, it’s no better than what Noah did. I can’t use you for revenge.”
“Lexi, I would love for you to use me for revenge. I’ve wanted you for a long time, but I know what you’re saying. I’m sorry I kissed you.”
My heart is pounding, and I’m breathing heavy and so is JC. There’s a pulse between my legs that I will away. I start to feel like garbage, not because of what I just did to Noah, but to JC. He’s been a much better man than Noah has in the past few weeks. Kind and sincere, only caring about my feelings. I wish he were this way years ago.
We both sit back against the couch, not speaking. Gradually the ache down below subsides, but I’m horny as hell. It would be so easy to give in to temptation and JC is oh so tempting.
“I think I better go. This was a horrible idea.”
“It wasn’t. You needed some comfort. It just got a little out of hand.”
“But I never should have let it happen. I know how you feel about me.”
“I love you, and if you marry Noah, that’s for you to decide. I don’t want to get in the way of your happiness.”
But was I happy? Am I happy? I don’t know. I don’t want to look like I’m needy, but the fact is that right now, I am. I quickly change the subject.
“Olivia is back.”
JC groans. “Fuck, just what I need since she hates me.”
“She doesn’t hate you. She thinks you’re an asshole.”
“Have you told her about what happened with Noah?”
“Not yet. She’s been on vacation in Australia for the past month. I think it’s a conversation best had in person. Why do you care if I told her or not?”
“Because it’s going to make me look like less of an asshole. The story is so weird. Noah doesn’t see his daughter for years, and then all of a sudden, bam. Then he fucks his ex.”
I think about what she’s going to say when she finds out that yet another of my fiancés cheated on me. Olivia tells it like it is. I guess she has that sharp wit because she’s had to protect herself all her life. She was always overweight as long as I’ve known her. Not by a lot but enough to still be overlooked by the guys she was in love with. It pissed me off because she’s gorgeous. It goes to show what a shallow society we live in.
“I don’t know about weird, but I wonder if we were married if Vivian would’ve tried to seduce Noah.”
“I have no question she would’ve. If a woman wants someone enough, they’re going to do what they need to so they can sleep with them.”
“Is that how it was with you?”
“No. I was stupid. I didn’t appreciate what I had at home. Can I ask you a question?”
“Sure.”
“Have you slept with Noah since you found out?”
“No. I make him sleep in the guest bedroom. Tonight will be the first time he’s sleeping in bed with me since that time.”
“Why?”
“Rory has the guest bedroom, and Noah said he doesn’t want to make it seem like anything is wrong between us. Isn’t that a joke? I have to play a part, so his daughter doesn’t run back to mommy and tell her how fucked up daddy’s relationship is.”
JC laughs and then immediately stops when he sees the sadness on my face.
