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“I did. He didn’t say it back…but I said it to him.”
“Good. Never leave things unsaid. Mom taught me that…and I told her I love her every five minutes in those final days. It matters.”
“Well, aren’t you the wise one?”
He grins. “You got the looks. I got all the brains.”
I snort. “Oh, really?” He might not be wrong about that. He’s got looks too, though.
“Has there been anyone special in your life? Anyone who sparked the thought you might be gay?”
He doesn’t answer immediately.
“You don’t have to tell me.”
“It’s not that, I just…I’m not sure. There was a guy in school, a football player, very much not gay, but so good looking. I would find myself staring at him, walking down certain halls just to glimpse him. And at night, well, I would, uh…you know…and his face was the one.”
“How long has that been happening?”
“A while…. like a couple of years.”
I raise my eyebrows. “So, have you ever been with a girl?”
He shakes his head.
“And no boys, other than dreams?”
He shakes his head again. “Pathetic, right?”
“No, not at all, just rare these days.”
“So, do you think I’m gay?”
I smile at him. “I can’t answer that, but if you are only attracted to men, feel that flutter in your belly because of men, then, yes, probably.”
“How did you…. what made you want Nandy?”
“He’s fucking gorgeous!”
Rowan laughs. “Yes, he is. But your reputation…you were always with women.”
My mind drifts back to that pink suit. His violin tucked under his chin and how beautiful hearing him play that very first time was.
“Do you mind if we don’t leave first thing tomorrow?”
He gives me a knowing smirk. “Of course not.”
Chapter forty-five
“What the fuck are you doing here? I thought I made myself clear.”
“Oh, you did,” I respond, my tone as acid filled as his. But the pain in my heart sears into me as well.
I step across the threshold to his parent’s house and he doesn’t stop me. I glance around the pristine foyer and then step over to the living room.
“Where is your violin?”
“Why?”
