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I closed my eyes for a brief second, then reopened them as I shook my head. “No.”
He furrowed his brow as he stared down at me. “Then why are you crying?”
There was no way I could reveal the truth.
How could I tell him that while he was simply using me, I still loved him?
How could I tell him that I never stopped loving him?
How could I tell him that being here with him was like stepping into the light from years of darkness?
I had been left with such hollow emptiness after I destroyed our bond, and despite the circumstances, being here with him like this filled me with an ounce of happiness I knew I didn’t deserve. How could I tell him all of that and not have him look at me like he did earlier when we’d been at the auction?
“I remember,” I told him without elaborating further.
“Remember what?” He reached down and swiped a few more of my tears away in such a bittersweet gesture that it made a few more fall in their place.
“Us, and making out like this. I remember it was what we were doing when your father came back home to tell me my parents had d-died.”
I nearly choked on the last word, and Gabriel didn’t miss it. He leaned in and kissed my lips softly.
“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have done this. I wasn’t thinking.”
He went to stand, but I grabbed his arm to stop him from fully rising.
“No, I don’t want you to stop.” In fact, I never wanted him to stop. I knew he would and therein lay the problem.
“I know what it’s like to lose your parents. I don’t want to bring that back up for you.”
God, despite what I had done to him, he still was trying to put my feelings and wants first. If I ever needed a reminder of why I loved this man so much, this would be yet another reason why.
“You’re not. Please, I need you so much.”
Those words slipped so easily off of my lips, and I meant them.
Gabriel hesitated for a moment, then he reached down and began to raise the bottom of the T-shirt I was wearing. I scrambled onto my knees, helping him rid me of it. Once it was on the floor beside us, I dropped my head back. He lowered his mouth to one of my breasts, and I forced myself not to cry out as he laved the hardened tip with his tongue, then sucked it into his mouth.
The feel of his teeth grazing the sensitive bud made my core ache, but it was in pleasure unlike my heart which was splintering apart in pain. He moved from one breast to the other giving it the same attention before stopping to gauge my reaction.
My lips quivered slightly, but I didn’t say anything. Instead, I reached out and ran one hand through his hair. I gave it a slight tug and smiled at the sound of his low growl. This man was the epitome of sin, especially when he bit his lower lip like he was doing now.
I stared at Gabriel and tried to save every inch of him to memory. He was so goddamn beautiful that it hurt so much more. I’d spent my entire life dreaming of a future with him since practically birth. We’d always been inseparable, until we weren’t.
Having to break his heart a decade earlier had been a necessary evil, but as I stared at him and watched the shadow of flames flicker on his skin, maybe I had been wrong.
It didn’t matter now. Nothing did. His opinion of me had changed, and rightfully so. He thought I had betrayed him, and in a way I had, just not for the reasons he thought. I liked to think I was protecting him from the ugly truth about me.
In reality, I had been a coward and only protecting myself. I had to choke back a sob, then distracted the two of us by touching him. He remained stoic as I traced his cheeks and chin with my hands, then the seam of his sensuous lips with my fingers. As I moved my thumb from one side to the other, he quickly nipped at it, causing me to pull my hand back.
“Gabriel,” I whispered.
My gaze lingered on him, and his alluring eyes which had always captivated me. They’d always been a warm shade of brown that reminded me of molasses. Now, however, they were much darker, and there was a hunger building inside them that made me ache even more.
“Are you sure you’re okay?” he asked.
I was stupidly staring at him as if I had never seen him before. Where I would be a forgettable sight in the morning, no moment I’d ever spent with him ever had been that way for me. I finally nodded, before responding.
“Yes.”
