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I shake my head and sob. "I-I shouldn't have tackled her."
His eyes, much like Lucas's, soften, and he whispers, "Kennedy…. All you saw was a deranged woman running toward him with a knife. We all know you'd do anything for him; you proved that when you were only seventeen and buried that body. Don't beat yourself up, darling. Don't let this put a wedge between you both when you're trying so hard to mend what has already been broken."
My body shakes as I rasp, "So many secrets, so much hurt, and I nearly lost him…."
He wraps his arms around my head, holding me to him, allowing me to use him to hold myself up. My pain bleeds from me, knowing after everything we've been through, everything we're trying to overcome, doesn't matter if he's not here with me.
I could have lost him….
26
Doc – Two Days Later
I gently move my hand up and down Kennedy's back as she sleeps cuddled up next to me, her head on my chest. My dad and Tech are both sitting near the bed I'm lying in.
I woke up yesterday in fucking agony, my girl laying how she is now but with tears running down her face as she watched me like a hawk.
She did good, real fucking good, according to Paul, and I couldn't be any prouder of her. Apparently, he wants her back in the ER, but Claudia would never allow that. NICU is her calling, but he's unwilling to admit it.
"How are you feeling, son?" my dad asks with a low rasp. His eyes are on my girl, looking concerned.
I give him a smile and joke, "Like I've been stabbed," but he doesn't laugh, and Tech shakes his head at me with a smirk. I sigh. "I'm okay, Dad, I promise. Kennedy did good."
He nods, but his concerned look doesn't disappear. He admits, "Snake thought she was going to pass out after she finished the surgery." He shakes his head. I hold my girl closer to me, hating that she got put in that position. "She kept mumbling that it was all her fault, that everything was her fault, that she should have stayed the first time instead of running away. Her legs gave out, and he caught her just in time as she fell apart."
I wince and look at my girl with concern as Tech speaks up. "I think her leaving when she did was good for her in a way. She's now got this amazing experience under her belt. She needs to be proud of that and not feel guilty for not hearing you out, as it got her out from underneath her mother's thumb. Should she have told you she was pregnant? Hell, yes, but we can't turn back time, and she needs to try and move forward and stop trying to protect you as well." He sighs, and then admits, "If anything, the brothers should feel guilty. They didn't question you or ask about your sanity." I snort, looking at him while my dad grins. "Instead, they thought the worst, and we all, including me, who knew the real truth, missed you falling apart, and for that, I am sorry, Doc."
I shrug. "I didn't want anyone to know, Tech. I knew where she was. I figured it out a few months after she left. I could have gone to her, I could have pleaded and begged her to listen, but I didn't. I knew Prue was watching my every move, and I decided to let my Pixie have her dream, to live her life while hoping she'd return."
My dad's eyes soften toward me, while Tech looks at me with awe.
I continued, "It wasn't easy; I felt like I couldn't breathe without her, and the only way I kept sane was when I wrote those letters. I missed her every day, and now, I wish I had gone to her. I wished I dragged her back, kicking and screaming, but I know I'd have regretted it, because she deserved to be angry with me…."
"And you deserved the knee in the balls I gave you, but you still should have come and got me,"my girl mumbles, her eyes still closed, and I smile, placing my nose on the top of her head.
"Fuc. ,Ken, you kneed him? Don't you want more kids?"Tech gasps in shock, and I snort.
I feel her tense at the “kids” comment, and I look at her as she looks at Tech and rasps, "Of course, I do. I didn't hit him too hard."
Pride fills me, knowing she's up to having more kids after losing Layla, and I squeeze her to me as I chuckle. I state, "Pixie, I was on the floor, trying not to fucking cry; you hit me hard. I told you, I'm pretty sure you kicked my balls into my throat."
She grins as my dad chuckles, and I look at Tech. I notice him holding onto his crown jewels, which makes me laugh. The action pulls my stomach, and I groan.
Kennedy glares at me, and I kiss her nose, making her glare soften.
She looks at Tech. "So uh, Tech, I noticed a certain lady sneaking out of your room this morning."
I look at Tech with a raised brow, knowing she means Brook.
He sighs, shaking his head. "She'll fuck me, but she won't have a relationship with me, and I just don't understand why. I've reassured her Nina is nothing to me, that I don't want her back, but fucking nothing."
I tilt my head and ask, "Do you think she got to Brook?"
He shrugs and admits, "I think so, but she denies it. Something has spooked her, I just don't know what, and honestly, I'm starting to get pissed about it. I'm ready to grab her and tie her to my bed until she fucking agrees to never leave again."
I grin as Ken snorts and says, "Do it, just tell me when so I can watch, because that would be funny."
Tech grins at her while my dad shakes his head and rasps, "I've seen your momma give her some dirty looks. Nina isn't the type to get her hands dirty after what happened when you were teenagers. Your mother, however, if she wants something, she has already proven she'll get it. Her claiming that she trapped your father is proof of that. If you want to look somewhere, look at her, but make sure your dad is aware."
