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That’s what it feels like to walk with Jax right now. Either when he looks at me or when he says my name. When I’m next to him or listening to him. It feels like I’ve finally found myself again. This is what I’ve been searching for my whole life and all it took was for me to get out of my own fucking way and to let someone else help me navigate for a little while.
“Where to now?” he asks as we get back to his bike.
“Now, we go talk to your family,” I tell him as I reach for his hand. I can tell he’s a bit apprehensive about the idea, but he squeezes my hand to let me know that he's ready.
But before we hop back onto his bike, he pulls me in and grabs me by the waist. One of his hands grip my chin to lift my eyes up to his slightly.
“I’m so fucking proud of you, Hollis. Everything you’ve become. Who you are and what you do. Everything that you’re working toward. For not giving up on me or on us. I’m just so damn proud.” I cling to his praise and feel a welcoming kind of lightheadedness as he compliments me with his eyes. My body is hot, my eyes feel heavy. Everything feels too fucking good right now.
My breath hitches as Jax leans down and offers his lips to mine in a passionate yet sinfully sincere kiss. The brush of his lips sends me promises of nothing more than what we both want and need, giving me even more praise as he savors my mouth. I caress his face in my palms and pull him deeper into me, I need more of this love. I’ll forever need more ofhis love.
In the middle of the afternoon, standing on the sidewalk of a busy street downtown where the sun shines, the wind blows gently in my hair, the noises of the city like buses and cars honking and dogs barking; all of that will forever remind me of Jax’s love. Just as the quiet nights with the dark skies and the moon in any shape showing and telling in the midnight-colored clouds. This tall, blonde hair, blue-eyed, inked up biker of a handsome, rough, and dreamy man that smells like amber stones coated in smoky undertones and stitched with leather, will forever bemy love.
“Thanks for not listening to me,” I say to him when the kiss breaks, and I playfully smack him in his chest.
“What do you mean?” He laughs as he traces my lip with his finger.
“When I told you to leave. Thanks for coming back.” I’m referring to our fight in my driveway, but I can tell he knows that. Nothing about that time is something that I can say I’m proud of. It took a lot of growing and realizations from me to get to this point now. But I think that my whole life was preparing for this moment here with Jax.
My first love.
My last love.
My soulmate.
My love.
“I’m sorry I took so long,” he whispers into my ear. “But I will always find you.”
He pulls me onto his bike with him and together, we drive off into the sunset to go tackle the next big thing.
thirty-nine
Jax
I’veneverreallybeenone to be nervous. I usually just do what the fuck I want and sometimes it gets me into trouble but usually I just take it and run with it. Today, I’m nervous because the most beautiful girl in the world woke up in my bed and took me on an adventure that was just meant for the two of us and now, she’s taking me to settle the issues I have with my mom.
It’s a good kind of nervous. The kind that tells you that nothing in your life will ever be the same and in the same breath, you’re right where you’re meant to be. Who said life would be this promising, consequential, exhilarating, and serious but passionate all at the same time? Because the way I’ve felt in the past three days alone is more than I can say I’ve experienced in my entire life and it’s all because of the girl who gave me the moon.
As I slow the bike down to a stop in front of my mom’s house, I feel Hollis squeeze her arms around me for a little extra support before I park and we both slip off. I take a deep breath as I rest the helmet on the handlebars and look over at Hollis.
“You good, biker boy?” She pats me on the shoulder in a way that saysgrow some ballsbut also,I got youand I just chuckle at her subtlety or lack thereof.
I truly am so lucky to have her here.
“If I can be corny for a second…” I swipe at the stubble on my jaw. “I feel like I can do anything with you by my side,” I tell her as I grab her hand and head up the path to the front door with a goofy ass grin spread on my face.
“Oh, that’s so cute, Jaxon.” Her tone is sarcastic and I watch her as she pretends to gag herself.
“Ass,” I call out to her as I playfully smack her in the back of the head.
“Ouch!” She chuckles and turns to smack me back but I laugh at her as I dodge it and right as she jumps up to fight me back, the front door opens and both of us stop dead in our tracks to see my mom standing there, confusion and melancholy painting her expression.
“Hey, mom.” I wave my hand poorly. Hollis and I right ourselves as we stand in front of my mom. We were laughing and joking, trying to lighten the mood and here my mother stands looking like her whole life just got flipped upside down.
“Hi, Delanie. Jax was hoping to talk,” Hollis offers, and I appreciate her standing up for me. I know she knows I can do it myself, but she also knows that I haven’t had the best relationship with my mom and I’m sure she can tell how tough this is actually going to be for me.
My mom’s blue eyes go from mine to Hollis’. Her brows are furrowed and I can tell she is hesitant.
