Page 21 of The Guardian

When Richard didn't respond, she took a step backward and began to close the door. Richard suddenly thrust his hand out, stopping her.

"Julie! Wait!" he said. "I'm sorry. Please . . . I really need to talk to you."

In the future, when she remembered this moment, she would always recall with shock how quickly Singer moved. Before she had time to process the fact that Richard had taken hold of the door, Singer had launched himself toward the hand, as if trying to catch a Frisbee in flight. Singer's jaw found its target, and Richard howled in pain as he tumbled over the threshold.

"Singer!" Julie screamed.

Richard fell to his knees, one arm extended as Singer shook his head from side to side, snarling.

"Stop him!" Richard screamed. "Get him off me!"

Julie lunged toward Singer, grabbed his collar, and tugged hard. "Let him go!" she commanded. "Let him go, now!"

Despite the fury of the moment, Singer fell back immediately and Richard drew his hand instinctively to his chest, wrapping his other hand around it. Singer stood by Julie's side, fangs showing, the hair on his back standing up.

"Singer, no!" she cried, still stunned by the dog's ferocity. "Is your hand okay?"

Richard moved his fingers, wincing. "I don't think anything's broken."

Julie's hand traveled to Singer. His muscles were rigid, his eyes locked on Richard.

"I didn't even see him coming," Richard said quietly. "Remind me not to hold your door again when your dog's around."

Though he spoke as if the incident were somewhat comedic, Julie didn't reply. Singer had acted instinctively to protect her, and she wasn't about to punish him for that.

Richard stood then, opening and closing his hand. Julie could see the indentations of Singer's teeth, though it didn't look as if he'd broken the skin. He moved a step farther away from her.

"I'm sorry," he said. "I shouldn't have tried to stop you from going inside. That was wrong of me."

You got that right, she thought.

"And I shouldn't have gotten angry with you earlier, either." He sighed. "It's just that this came at the end of a really hard week. That's the reason I wanted to come by. I know it's no excuse, but . . ."

He sounded both sincere and contrite, but she held up her hands to stop him.

"Richard . . . ," she said.

Her tone made it plain she didn't want to go into it again. Richard's eyes darted to the side. He stared, seemingly at nothing, the porch light flickering on his face, and Julie saw that she hadn't been mistaken about the earlier tears. His eyes were misting again.

When he spoke again, his voice was choked up, ragged.

"My mother died this week," he whispered. "I just came from her funeral."

"That's why I had to leave the note on your Jeep that night," Richard explained. "The doctor said that I'd better catch the first flight I could because he wasn't even sure she'd last another day. I caught the first flight out of Raleigh on Tuesday morning, and with all the new security, I had to leave in the middle of the night to get there in time."

A few minutes had passed, and Richard was sitting on Julie's couch, staring at the ground, still fighting the tears. It had taken a moment to register what he'd said, but once she did, she couldn't help but feel a jolt of sympathy for him. After she'd stammered out the usual-"I'm sorry" and "Why didn't you tell me right away?"-Richard had broken down completely, and his tears had gotten to her. Julie had allowed him into the house after putting Singer in the bedroom. Now she was sitting across from him in the chair, listening as he spoke, thinking, Great timing, Julie. You can really pick your moments when it comes to breaking hearts, huh?

"I know it doesn't change what you told me on the porch, but I didn't want us to end with a fight. I enjoyed the time we spent too much for that."

He cleared his throat and pressed his fingers against the lids of his eyes. "It just seemed so sudden, you know? I wasn't prepared for what you told me." He sighed. "Hell, I wasn't prepared for much of anything. You can't imagine what it was like up there. Everything . . . the way she looked at the end, what the nurses were saying, the way it smelled . . ."

Both hands went to his face and she heard his ragged breath, a series of quick intakes followed by a long exhale.

"I just needed to talk to someone. Someone I knew would listen."

Oh . . . boy, Julie thought. Could this have possibly been any worse?

She forced a wan smile.

"We can talk," she said. "We're still friends, aren't we?"

Richard rambled on for a couple of hours, bouncing from subject to subject: his memories of his mother, what he was thinking when he first walked into the hospital room, how it felt the following morning to know he was holding her hand for the last time. After he'd been talking for a while, Julie offered him a beer; as the evening went on, he finished three without seeming to notice. Every now and then he'd pause and stare off to the side of the room, a dazed expression on his face, as if he'd forgotten what he was trying to say; other times he spoke as though he'd just downed a double espresso, the words running together. Throughout it all, Julie listened. She asked an occasional question when it seemed appropriate, but that was all. She saw tears more than once, but when they welled up, Richard would pinch the bridge of his nose to stop them.

Midnight came and went. The hands of the clock on the mantelpiece rolled past one, then began edging toward two. By then, the beer and emotional exhaustion had taken their toll. Richard had begun to repeat himself, and his words had begun to slur. When Julie went to the kitchen for a glass of water for herself, she noticed that Richard's eyes had closed. Wedged into the corner of the couch, his head was angled against the back cushion, his mouth open. His breaths were coming in steady rhythm.

Holding the glass of water, she stood in place, thinking, Oh, this is just great. So what do I do now?

She wanted to wake him but didn't think he was sober enough to drive. She wasn't comfortable having him stay, but then again, he was already asleep, and if she woke him again, he might want to talk some more. Despite her willingness to listen if he needed her to, she was exhausted.

"Richard," she whispered. "You awake?"

Nothing.

A moment later, she tried again with the same result. She figured she could shout or nudge him awake, but considering the options, it seemed like more trouble than it was worth.

It's no big deal, she finally decided, he's out.

Julie turned out the lights and, leaving him where he was, headed back into the bedroom, closing and locking the door behind her. Singer was on the bed. He raised his head, watching as she slipped into her pajamas.

"It's only for tonight," she explained, as if trying to convince herself she was doing the right thing. "It's not like I'm changing my mind. It's just that I'm tired, you kn

ow?"

Julie woke at dawn, and after peeking at the clock, she groaned and rolled over, trying to ward off the day. She was sluggish and felt as if she were suffering from a hangover.

After crawling out of bed, she cracked open the door to peek out; Richard still appeared to be sleeping. She hopped into the shower and dressed for work; she didn't want him to see her in her pajamas. By the time she entered the living room-with Singer moving warily beside her-Richard was sitting up on the couch, rubbing his face. His keys were perched on top of his wallet on the table in front of him.

"Oh, hey," he said, looking embarrassed. "I guess I conked out, huh? I'm sorry about that."

"It was a long day," she said.

"Yeah, it was," he responded. He took a moment to reach for his wallet as he stood. A brief smile flickered across his face. "Thanks for letting me stay last night. I appreciate it."

"No problem," she said. "You gonna be okay?"

"I guess I have to be. Life goes on, right?"

His shirt was wrinkled, and he brushed at it with his hands. "I'm sorry again for the way I acted last night," he added. "I don't know what got into me."

Julie's hair hadn't dried completely, and she felt a drip of water soak through the fabric of her blouse.

"It's okay," she said. "And I know it must seem like it came out of the blue, but . . ."

He shook his head. "No-it's fine. You don't have to explain-I understand. Mike seems like a nice guy."

She hesitated. "He is," she finally said, "but thank you."

"I want you to be happy. That's all I ever wanted. You're a great person, and you deserve that. Especially after listening to me drone on last night. You have no idea how much that meant to me. No hard feelings?"

"No hard feelings," she repeated.

"Still friends?"

"Sure," he said.

"Thanks." Then, after a beat, he picked up his keys and started toward the door. Opening it, he looked over his shoulder.

"Mike's a lucky guy," he called out. "Don't forget that." He smiled, but it carried with it a trace of melancholy. "Good-bye, Julie."

When he finally got in the car, Julie felt herself exhale, thankful that it had gone a lot better than she'd thought it would. Then, frowning, she changed her mind. Well, better than last night, anyway. Anything was better than that.

But at least it's over now.

Eighteen

Inside the rented Victorian, Richard made his way up the stairs to the corner room. He'd painted the walls black and covered the windows with duct tape and a light-blocking tarp; a red light dangled over a makeshift table along the far wall. His photography equipment was in the corner: four different cameras, a dozen lenses, boxes of film. He turned on the lamp and angled the shade so the light could fan out better.

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