AllFreeNovel
Share Us
He smiled and massaged my clit firmly with his thumb. "Come again," he ordered. "I know you can."
"Mmmm, I'm sure I can," I agreed. Between his thumb and the friction of his cock sliding back and forth across the most sensitive part of my body, I was close again.
"Of course you can, you know why?" he asked. "Because I told you to. And because when I fuck you, I am in charge."
There was something about those words that turned me on so hard. I moaned.
"You like to hear that?" he asked. He paused his thrusting and rubbed me harder. He leaned forward and whispered, "I’m the boss. Come for me again."
I came all right. Like thunder, lightning, fireworks and vanilla ice cream all rolled into one. Every nerve in my body lit up in a rush of heat, blood and pleasure. I cried out as the warmth rushed over me, from my toes to the top of my head.
He started to thrust again. After maybe a dozen strokes, he came too, with a series of hard, animalistic grunts.
Finally he flopped forward, panting.
I lowered my legs so they hung off the side of the desk, and looked up at the ceiling.
Fuck.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
I sat up so he slid out of me. I rubbed my forehead with my fingertips and exhaled. What was I thinking? Oh, right, I wasn’t thinking.
"Jake…”
His head jerked up.
“I’m sorry. I should have— We shouldn't have done that," I said softly.
"Elodie—"
I swung my leg over and dropped to the floor. "I'm sorry. This was a mistake. I should have stopped it before it went this far."
The look on his face was like a stab to the heart. I guessed he assumed fucking meant we could move forward the way we were before Dagen took me. Or maybe he hoped it would convince me.
"Bullshit," he said after a moment of shocked silence. "Nothing about this was a mistake. I love you. I know you love me. You say you only said it because you were scared but I don't buy it, El. You wanted this as much as I did. Not just this." He waved at the desk top.“Us.”
For the first time since we met, he looked like a lost boy. Like he was desperate to find the right words to fix this, but knew it was like putting a small bandage over a severed limb.
"Wanting something doesn't mean it's a good idea," I said coolly. I pushed all the walls I had lowered for the last hour or so back into place. "I don't want to lead you on. It's not fair to you."
He snorted and pulled his jeans back up. "I'm a big boy. I can decide for myself. I decided the moment I met you. I know for a fact you did too. I also know you feel the same way about the other guys. That's why you trusted them so quickly. It was because you knew there was something there. Something that binds you to them, the same way we are bound together. I know they feel the same way about you, even Hutton." He grimaced.
He put his hands on my shoulders and looked me in the eyes. "I know you've been through a lot—"
"Because I let my guard down," I said. "I can't do that again. Ever. Not with you and not with any of them. Not even with myself. It won't be the restaurant or my house next time. There is nothing he won't try to take from me to break me. How do you think I will feel if the next thing he takes is you? Or any of the guys? I can't…"
I swallowed down a knot of emotion. "I can't afford to be that vulnerable. The best, safest place for all of you is as far away from me as you can get. Let me deal with Dagen and—"
"If you think I am walking away from youever, much less right now, you're out of your mind," he said. "Whether you like it or not, we are a team. We feel what we feel. We can't turn it off. I don't want to. I don't think this was a mistake. I will never, ever regret making love to you."
He dropped his hands and took a few steps away. He let out an exasperated sigh and turned back. "I wish I knew what I had to say or do to convince you."
I saw the sincerity in his eyes, heard it in his voice. If there was a single word or act he could say or do to convince me, he would say or do it.
I looked down at the floor, then back up again."There is nothing you can say or do. You know how stubborn I am."
"And you know how stubborn I am," he said. "I will die before I give up on you."
