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“Baby, I have no intention of not helping you. And you’d better get used to it, because me, and my help, aren’t going fucking anywhere.”
She looks like she’s going to cry - and I couldn’t fucking stand it if she did - so I quickly do the only thing I can think of. I grab her, pull her in close and melt my lips into hers. I kiss her softly at first, comforting her and reassuring her, but then I deepen the kiss when I feel her shock morph into desire and she starts to respond. I pour everything into that fucking kiss. How much she hurt me when she vanished. How I wouldn’t give up on her. How I loved her then and how I still do now.
She pulls away, breathing hard. I understand that there’s still unfinished business between us. I’m sure Jax still has a million questions he’ll demand answers to, but I don’t give a shit. I lost my girl once and there’s no way in hell I’m losing her again, no matter what she’s done. I gently lean forward and kiss her nose.
“I missed doing that, Princess,” I tell her, and I swear I see the ghost of a smile pass her lips, but she doesn’t say anything. “How did Phoenix know who I was?”
“You’re not some dirty secret. I talk about you. About all of you. Phoenix and I don’t really have secrets.”
“So she knows everything?” I ask incredulously.
“Don’t be stupid, Reb. I’m as open and honest with her as I can be, but let’s not forget that she’s...a child.” The way she finishes her speech is a little odd but I can’t figure out what she might have wanted to say.
“Can I come by again?” I ask her.
“You bloody well better. Phoenix is expecting you to come for ice cream. Text me and I’ll send you the details. It’ll probably be Saturday. We always spend the day together.”
“Oh? Doesn’t Phoenix’s dad ever have her at weekends?” She pulls a face at my question.
“He’s...not exactly on the scene.”
“Fucker! Want me to beat the shit out of him?”
“No! No, it’s okay. We do just fine without him.”
I pull a face at her idea of doing ‘just fine’. I’ll soon sort that out though. As I say my goodbyes and get into my car and head off, I can’t help but think about Phoenix’s father. What a shit. From the little I’ve seen of her, I can already tell that Phoenix is a great kid. What kind of a dick would walk out on her? More to the point, what kind of a dick would ever be fool enough to let Raven go?
I never would.
Charlotte’s Diary
18/09/19
I did something stupid today. Even as I write this, my cheeks are flaming and I want to throw my pen down to cover my burning face in my hands. Cringe.
I kissed Baxter!
I don’t even know why. Or how. Or...anything. One moment we were climbing over some rocks to access yet another private cove that he had been telling me about, when I slipped.
Baxter caught me easily, holding me in his arms. And it was like time stood still. We were staring at each other, breathing hard from the climb, and I thought there was a moment. I felt the little zing of electricity. I thought I saw the desire flash in his eyes. And it was just so nice to be held again, that I leaned forward to close the gap between us and gently planted my lips on his.
For a moment he did nothing - Shock? Horror? Repulsion? - and then he jerked away and dropped me so suddenly that I almost fell down the cliff face!
God, I’m so embarrassed. I would have been mortified anyway, but the fact that he rebuffed me makes it a thousand times worse.
The rest of the day was awkward as fuck because there was no where to run to or escape to.
There’s no way I can look him in the face ever again. I’m due to leave the island in a month. Surely I can avoid him until then?
