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Kellie laughs. “It’s an extremely lame excuse and you did the right thing. I’m actually shocked that you were going to lose your V card to him of all people.”

I look over at her. “What do you mean him of all people?”

“I mean, you’ve dated before. You’ve dated guys for a lot longer that you never sealed the deal with. So, why Rayn? Why was he the special one?” she asks.

It’s a good question.

I used to think that it would be like this a-ha moment.

I used to think it would be this big step that I would be ready to take after a candlelit dinner.

Turns out that losing my virginity could happen over a tornado scare with a guy I’m not even dating.

“Honestly? He’s a good guy,” I tell her. “He won’t let me get to know him very well. He keeps very big walls up. But in the moments he lets them down, it’s clear. There’s a very good guy there.”

Kellie stares at me. “And he’s crazy hot?”

“And he’s crazy hot,” I agree.

“So, what are you going to do? You’re just going to let him get away?” she asks.

I hug my pillow closer to my chest. “Yes, I am.”

“You’re just going to let him lose himself in football while you hole yourself away in school and your to-do list?” she asks.

I nod. “That’s the plan.”

She pats my hand. “You two are so very, very functional.”

“Yes, we are,” I agree sarcastically.

The truth is that I am done with chasing Rayn.

I was the one who kissed him first. I was the one who told him I was a virgin. I’m constantly letting myself be open to being hurt by him and I am through with that. I don’t want to get hurt.

I want to be focused like he is.

And I really don’t want to be around him anymore.