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Then she pressed her face back into his neck and held on tighter.

He carried her downstairs without asking.

She didn't object.

The great room was dark except for the fire he'd banked before bed, down to coals now, casting just enough orange light to navigate by. He grabbed the trench coat from the mudroom hook — her coat, it had become her coat, he'd stopped thinking of it as his weeks ago — and pushed through the porch door into the cold.

The night was extraordinary in its wild majesty.

The snow had stopped sometime in the last few hours and left the world polished and still, every surface holding the moonlight, the valley below the ridge gone silver and vast and silent. The sky was ridiculous with stars — the extravagance of a Montana sky after snowfall, every star brighter for the clean air, the Milky Way an actual visible smear across the dark.

He settled into the big porch chair and wrapped the trench coat around them both, Sage in his lap, her legs across the arm of the chair, her head against his bare chest. She was still shivering — not the nightmare shiver anymore, just cold and coming down, her body recalibrating. He pulled the coat tighter. Rubbed slow circles on her back through the flannel she'd worn to bed.

She was quiet for a long time.

He was fine with quiet.

Then — from somewhere down by the barn — the sound of something massive shifting. A huff. Fourteen hundred pounds of grizzly appeared at the barn door, nose working, head swinging toward the porch. Brutus considered them for a moment with the slow, solemn deliberateness of an animal that had seen most things and was rarely surprised by any of them. Then he padded across the snow, heavy and unhurried, and settled himself at the base of the porch steps with a sound like a small avalanche.

He put his enormous head down on his paws.

Looked up at Sage.

Sage looked down at Brutus.

Something in her exhaled that had been held for a long time.

Cal felt it — the loosening of a body that has been braced against something and finally, carefully, lets the brace go. Her weight shifted against him. Became heavier in the way people get heavier when they stop holding themselves up.

He pressed his lips to her hair.

Didn't plan it. Didn't announce it. Just — did it. Slow, careful, his mouth against the top of her head for a moment before he lifted it again.

She went very still.

Then melted.

Her hand, which had been gripping his forearm, opened and flattened against his skin. Her cheek turned in against his chest. He felt the exhale of her, warm against his sternum, and they both looked out at the silver valley and the extravagant stars and said nothing, and it was the most complete silence he'd been inside in longer than he could remember.

"Cal?" she said. So softly it barely cleared the air between them.

"Yeah, baby girl."

A beat. Just the stars and the cold and Brutus breathing slow and steady at their feet.

"Don't leave me. Okay?"

He held her a little tighter. Careful. Always so careful.

"I won't," he said. "Promise."

He meant it the way he'd meant every promise he'd ever made that mattered — with his whole body, with whatever was left of him that still knew how to mean things.

I promise, sweetheart. God help me, I promise.

The stars were very bright.

He'd been quiet so long she might have thought he was done. Might have thought he'd said everything there was to say.