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The bluntness helped to quell the nerves some. “It… it emptied my head.”
He didn’t want to say more about his ADD because that was personal, and this was about work. The description was the best he could come up with on the fly.
“Did you feel calm after it?” Kodi didn’t have to think about that and nodded. “Then maybe we can try it here, at work, to see if it will stop the outbursts.” Lennon pushed the wheeled chair back with ease, bringing his face closer to Kodi’s to see his pupils enlarge. “Because the only other option left is for you to accept my resignation. Things can’t continue the way they are for either of us, it’s not healthy.”
And spanking is?
Kodi kept that thought to himself when it was difficult to swallow at the very idea of Lennon resigning. His pulse skyrocketed as he contemplated his workday without Lennon. His temples throbbed with the sudden speed and anxiety. Lennon was the first person he’d worked with for months on end, who wasn’t running to HR screaming. That had to mean he was willing to stay?
This was what he’d wanted and hadn’t known how to ask for, and Lennon was offering him the chance. He’d be foolish not to accept. He wanted to see if this was indeed the answer to helping his brain shut off and relieve the pressure that built inside him. But doing it with Lennon… suddenly that seemed risky.
Do you want him to leave us?
That indeed was the question, and it was more complicated than it should have been.
Was he actually contemplating accepting this unconventional working agreement?
The fluttering in his chest was excitement, and Lennon was opening the door for him to try something without strings. The memory of Friday was there, enticing him into this foolishness. He couldn’t get a handle on Lennon, on what he wanted when he was usually so easy to read.
He wants this.
How do you know? Kodi challenged his wolf.
His scent. He’s excited.
That could be thoughts of being free of me.
Then why offer the alternative to quitting? his animal reasoned.
To make me look foolish. The answer came from all his insecurities about how he hating looking foolish after years of feeling that way.
Stop with that nonsense, you know that Lennon would not act like that.
“This is just between us? No one will know?” he found himself asking, a part of him desperate to believe his animal was right.
“I’ll confess now that I spoke to my brother, and he gave me advice on a paddle, as did the store owner. They will keep my confidence.” Lennon sounded confident.
“And it only happens here, behind a locked door?” Fuck if he wanted one of his brothers walking in. “When I say so?”
Lennon nodded, then shook his head, the rich brown messy hair falling over his forehead. His action confused Kodi until he explained. “Here yes, but I get to decide when, not you. I’m the one having to endure your outbursts.”
Gods, where did this domineering side come from? Had Lennon always had it but hidden it away at work?
Has my behavior brought it out? Kodi wasn’t sure how he felt about that.
“If I say stop, will you?” His cock was fully hard and wasn’t that a damn kicker. This reaction seemed like it wasn’t a one off, like he’d hoped for.
No, you never.
Can it.
“We will find your tolerance levels together,” Lennon answered softly, but firmly. “What do you choose?”
Wasn’t that the million dollar question!
Chapter Five
Lennon
