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RoughingTheModel: Hey, sorry for the radio silence. I’ve been traveling for work.

I stare at my cell in disbelief.

What the hell do I say in reply to that? It’s so…vague.

But maybe that’s for the best. He’s leaving the door open for me to let him know if I’m still interested.

Fucking hell, this is why I don’t date. I hate the games, the bullshit, the unknowns.

With hookups, I know exactly where I stand. We have fun, we both get what we want, and we walk away happy.

This whole is-he-going-to-message-me-or-is-it-over? stress is just a little bit too much.

But despite that, if he did say we were done, I’d be gutted.

I haven’t come anywhere close to having my fill of Cooper Nash yet.

At the very least, I want to continue messaging him. Anything else, maybe even a repeat of last weekend, although with us actually getting to the end, would be a bonus.

HotScore: Hey, stranger. I missed seeing your hot body on my cell. I must confess, I might have watched some of your videos a couple of times. You know, just to tide me over.

There might be guys out there who would play it cool, but after not hearing from him for so long, I’m done with that shit.

I have no qualms letting him know that I want him. As his online persona or his real one. I’m not fussy right now.

RoughingTheModel: Missing me, huh?

HotScore: You know it. So, how have you been, other than busy working?

RoughingTheModel: Yeah, you know. Busy. My life gets crazy at times, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.

I haven’t asked him what he does for work. I always assumed that if he didn’t want to share, then he didn’t have to. But now, I understand why he’s chosen not to.

HotScore: I’m hoping that one day I’ll remember what that’s like. I’m getting bored with being unemployed. There’s only so much time I can spend on my hobbies before they become less fun.

RoughingTheModel: Do your hobbies include watching my videos?

HotScore: Too right. Hottest things I’ve seen in a while.

RoughingTheModel: Better than your hookup the other night?

HotScore: Nice job sliding that in there

RoughingTheModel: I appreciate you telling me about it, but I need you to know that you don’t owe me anything. It would be selfish of me to think you were only having fun with me.

I wish I could be.

I keep that thought to myself.

HotScore: I don’t do well with lies. I’d rather everyone know what’s going on. And as for your first question…It could have been better.

RoughingTheModel: Damn. Nothing worse than a disappointing lay.

HotScore: It’s complicated. On paper, he’s my perfect man, but things are never that simple, are they?

Do I want him to realize he was the man I was disappointed in last week? I’m not sure. Would it make all of this easier if he figured it out as well? Or would it make it worse? Would he pull away if he knew?

RoughingTheModel: Nope. Never. Life would be so much easier if we had what we want, right?