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“You are incredible.”

“I’m really not.” I get to my feet. “Let’s go and find Levi. See if he wants to have some fun.”

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ASPEN

I had little doubt that Levi would say yes to our proposition, though he did look at me with that halfcocked head and asked me if I’m sure. I told him I trusted him, and Dov, and that they’d keep me safe. I want to do this for Dov, to let him experience what he’s always wanted—to fuck me while I’m mostly unconscious.

I’m not only doing it for Dov, though. I want to know how it will feel, too. We’ve agreed that he’ll only use a fraction of the dosage, so I’ll still be aware of what’s going on, able to feel him and hear him, but unable to move or respond fully.

Maybe I’m crazy for doing this, but perhaps this place and these men have made me that way.

I always knew there was a darker side to what I liked sexually. While I do my best not to ever think about Tobias these days, sex with him was nothing like it is with Blake and his sons. They push my boundaries, and that excites me.

I’ve been protective of my water glass recently, making sure I drink only water fresh from the faucet, though it seems silly when I do genuinely believe Dov wouldn’t continue to drug me when I’ve asked him not to. Perhaps it’s others I’ve been wary of—the ones I’m sure still walk the hallways of the hotel, despite having died decades ago. Now I raise my glass to my lips, and I drink willingly, despite knowing there’s something in my water.

Levi and Dov both watch me closely. I’m dressed how I normally would for bed, in a silky camisole and shorts. We’re making this as realistic as possible for Dov.

I go to my bed and slip between the sheets. We’ve left a lamp on but covered it with one of my t-shirts, so the light is dim and only reaches as far as my bed.

“I’ll be right over here,” Levi says and takes his place on a chair in the corner.

The darkness swallows him.

I close my eyes and twist my head on the pillow and make my breathing as shallow as possible. I allow my limbs to go loose and floppy. It’s a little like meditating, and I can feel myself drifting off.

I sense Dov hovering over me, his gaze roaming across my body, drinking me in.

It’s a strange sense of power, being like this. It shouldn’t be. Dov is the physically powerful one, yet I feel like my rejection of him could break him.

Desire coils low in my core. My nipples peak. I know this is fucked up; so why is it turning me on? This big, strong, dangerous man needing me. He’s so different than his brother—Levi’s cocky assuredness, while Dov seems to still be figuring out his way in the world, or at least the confines of the hotel and the grounds, which has become his entire world.

He’s giving me time for the drugs to work. I don’t know if it’s a placebo effect, or if they have worked this quickly, but it’s as though my body is incredibly heavy and I can’t move my limbs. It’s not a scary feeling, though, more like I’m being held by someone I completely trust and I can fully relax.

The bed depresses on one side of me with Dov’s weight, and I sense him lean over me.

He hovers so close, his lips barely grazing mine. The heat of his breath warms my skin. I want to lift up, to meet his mouth with mine, to push my tongue into his mouth, but I can’t. He exhales with a groan of longing.

I want him to touch me, and I practically vibrate with torment and need.

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DOV

If I show any signs I’m going to lose it, Levi will step in. I trust him. I might be the older brother, but it feels like the other way around. He watches out for me, and though he probably wouldn’t admit it, he watches out for her now, too.

I know he’s not doing this out of the goodness of his heart. He’s watching because he’s getting off on seeing this happen. He wants to know what will happen when I take Aspen when she’s unconscious. He wants to see her body react to the invasion of my giant cock, if she’ll come in her sleep.

Maybe he’ll join in, too, once I’ve spent my seed inside her, assuming he won’t need to step in before that. Perhaps he’ll want to fill her as well. I don’t understand how any man could stay away from this beautiful, pliant, willing body. All her pretty little holes are ripe for being filled.

“Aspen?” I whisper her name.

She stirs, her lips parting. I lean over her and dust my lips across hers. I inhale the scent of her sleepy breath.

“That’s it, that’s my good girl.”

I brush my thumb across her cheek. Her skin is so soft. Like velvet. I nuzzle my nose and mouth against her, breathing her in. My cock jerks with need. I can’t wait to be inside her. That she’s given me permission to do this is incredible.