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“That’s not what I meant.” I let out a sigh. “Jesus, what I meant is that our situations are different. I agree one-hundred percent in your decision to end our marriage. I don’t think she’s good for you.”
“And you think Heath’s good for you?”
“I do.”
“Then, again, why are you here? Why are you throwing money away on rent when you have a home, kids, and a husband who actually wants you around?”
“That’s the thing though.” I look down and pick at the threads of the blanket. “For a while, it’s felt like he’s kept me around because it was convenient. I’d run through my day, taking care of the kids, the house, the dog, and that’s on top of my own job and my writing. I did it all, and yet when he got home, he was barely able to give me a half ass smile.”
“I’m going totry and play the devil’s advocate here for a minute. Heath not only owns but runs his own company. I can’t imagine the stress that has to put him under.”
“And flying isn’t” I lift my head and look towards him.
“It’s different.” He leans back, placing his arms on the back of the couch. “I’m responsible for only me when I’m in that jet. I don’t have the livelihood of several different families on my conscience while I’m working. I’m sure he can’t just turn his work brain off when he comes home. Most people aren’t wired that way. I don’t think the way he was towards you was intentional. It was him, being a man, being a boss, and coming home to be a father and husband. It can’t always be sunshine and roses. I hate to say it, but it’s true.”
“Well, even so, that doesn’t give him the excuse to be checked-out most of the time. After years of thinking it will change, of making excuses, I took a stand. No woman or man needs to take that. It doesn’t mean I don’t love Heath, because if I didn’t, I wouldn’t be renting. If I wanted to walk, then I would have filed the papers already. I think he needs to see things in a different light like I have.”
He cocks his head to the side. “And if he doesn’t?”
I press my lips together before answering. “I haven’t thought about that possibility.”
“Well, maybe you should.”
