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“On a serious note,” I began once my laughter had subsided. “I hear you, Mrs. Luck.”
“Don’t try to distract me with cutesy comebacks. I’m not playing with you, Jamie. A lot of people fight with every inch of their being to get half as close to doing what they love to do as you are right now. You’ve been blessed enough to be able to set yourself up to have the chance to explore without worry. Bask in it. Quit being such a punk.”
“A’ight, now your lil’ ass is getting beside yourself. Go to work, bye.”
“You know I’m right,” Nyx’s voice was as melodic as ever. “But I do need to get behind the bar, though. I’ll talk to you later.”
“Bye, Nyx.”
We disconnected the call, and I dropped the phone onto my desk, letting both conversations run through my head. Although, I’d never actively considered pursuing anything musically. Not as far as a career, anyway.
In a way, Nyx was right. I had no idea if I could make it for sure, and that was a problem for me. My entire life centered on order and stability. How the hell was I supposed to forget all of that overnight and jump into something new? Something I had no way to know if it would work out?
Just the idea of it was stressful as fuck.
I’d keep Ximena’s suggestion in the back of my mind, but for now, it was a negative. I couldn’t run the risk of everything I’d built going up in flames because of a whim.
If I had to choose between music and stability, stability was winning every time.
Chapter Fifteen
NYX
“God, it feels like we haven’t gotten a chance to hang out in forever!” Raelynn wailed dramatically, clinging to my arm.
“Girl, goodbye. You’ve been too busy for me. The only reason why I get to see your face today is so you can have an excuse to come to Sunday dinner.”
“Hey, I resent that. I happened to have missed my best friend. A lot.”
“Yeah, yeah, yeah,” I uttered, entering my parent’s neighborhood.
“If anything, I should be the one upset with you. Ever since you and Mr. Man have started growing closer, you don’t need me anymore.”
“Rae, shut up,” I giggled. “Jamie and I are just friends. That’s it.”
“That glow you’re sporting says otherwise. But I’m not mad at it.”
“You, of all people, know that dating and relationships are the last thing on my mind right now. I’m not stable enough for either.”
“Mmkay, but you like him though?”
“I think after the way you were drooling over his brother; I should be asking if you like him.”
“Girl,” Raelynn kissed her teeth. “I gave him my number, but nothing’s happened since.”
“And why not?”
“As I told him, verbatim, he emits hoe vibes. I don’t have time for that shit.”
“You were around him for all of five hours, if that. Nowhere near long enough to come to that conclusion.”
“And after hour number two, I determined that he probably has three kids and at least two baby mamas stashed around here somewhere. As slick at the mouth as he is, you can’t tell me any different.”
Snickering, I pulled my car into the driveway. “Oh my God, I am so sick of you. That man does not have any kids.”
“And how would you know?”
“Jamie hasn’t mentioned having any nieces or nephews.”
