Page 49 of Born to Scar

My eyebrow arches. He shrugs, looking at me pointedly. He never lets women over, but Lain looks more comfortable than I have ever been here. He is worse than I am at having people in his space.

Oh. He is in deep with her.

We planned that night with Indy and Lain at the Cat together. He had been interested in Lainy for a while. Of course, he knew about my crush on Indy for years. We both knew that we needed to go for it, because they wouldn’t. I spent that night fighting off grid girls. She didn’t even notice, asking why I was still there. I had to shrug her off because I wasn’t even sure why. Staying was the best decision of my life.

They didn’t take a very high dose that night. They took enough to feel amazing, but if they wanted it to stop, they were still in control.

“She’s with Bik. He came to her hideout tonight,” I explain, and Kia steps back with a bewildered look on his face. “He saved her life, legit saved her. He knows her hideout.”

“He went there after he heard from Ray?”

My head and Cam’s tilt in question, suspicious of how Kia would know that.

“Uh, well…” He clears his throat. “Ray is Bik’s boyfriend.”

I bark a laugh. “How the fuck did you know that?”

“What? They don’t hide it.”

I laugh again. “Am I really that dense?” He shrugs with a shitty smirk that says I am and holds out a bag. “Thanks, my man,” I say, grabbing it, and I turn away.

“Hey!” he yells after us. “Take care of her…just do good by her,” he mutters, before closing his door.

Cam’s gaze finds mine. “We will,” we agree on the spot, in unison. Kia might kill us if we don’t.

“What is this?” Cam asks in the front seat of my car.

“X. She loves it. It doesn’t have any negative effects on her, and she…she fucking flies, man.” God, does she fly.

“Ecstasy?”

I nod. “Yes, exactly. Ecstasy.”

“Have you done it?”

“Yeah, the first time I was with her, we were on it.” He gives me a wary face. “Dude, trust me, you’ll get it. It’s not like we aren’t in control. We don’t take enough to drastically impede our decisions or lose ourselves. Our bodies just feel…everything. Every touch, every sensation. So much pleasure.”

“It’s what she took the night she saw me with Angela, isn’t it?” he asks, and I nod. “You were on it?”

“No,” I respond. “I told you I was enjoying it with her that night.” He nods, satisfied with the answer. “You are about to experience some of the best sensations you’ve ever felt,” I croon at him. “It’ll feel so fucking good with all of us. Fuck, I can’t wait.”

“We gotta get home, Jay,” Cam breathes, already turned on.

When we get through the door, I yell, “Let’s fly, sweet girl.” Indy’s laugh comes from the kitchen, and we follow it. She pops out right before we get there.

“Let’s fly.” She smiles, hopping to her tiptoes, kissing each of us on the cheek.

After pulling the pills out, I break hers in half and hand one to her. I pass Cam his and take mine. Indy takes hers, but Cam seems hesitant.

“You don’t have to,” Indy whispers, kissing his neck.

“Yeah. No pressure, man,” I emphasize. He looks between us, shrugs, and pops it. I grin. “Fuck, yeah.”

I can tell when it starts to hit her. First, she loosens up. It’s like years of anxiety leave her body. Then, she touches herself, running her fingers up and down her arms, and she wants to be close to me. It’s starting. She is feathering her fingers on her arms and is pressed in close between us.

“You’re starting to feel it, aren’t you?” I whisper in her ear. She shivers and groans. Goosebumps prickle her skin. Cam is sitting with his arms draped over the top of the sofa and legs spread wide. One hand rests on her shoulder, rubbing circles on her skin. I stroke his arm, and he groans, too.

“You’re both feeling it. How do you feel, Cam?” My voice is muffled in Indy’s neck. She shivers, melting closer into my side. Skin to skin is everything for her, so I tug her shirt off, then mine, pulling her to straddle me. She lightly slides her body against mine and moans, kissing my neck. I feel fucking right, and her body on mine has my skin buzzing in overdrive.