Page 84 of The Duke’s Christmas Redemption

Chapter Twenty-Four

Mid December 1817

The breakfast parlour at Alverton Grange held unusual tension that morning, though not the careful distance that had once marked William and Charlotte’s shared meals. Rather, Charlotte found herself watching her husband with measured consideration as he focused rather too intently on his correspondence, deliberately avoiding the topic she had raised moments ago.

“Surely,” she ventured again, noting how his shoulders tensed beneath his perfectly tailored coat, “some celebration of the season would be appropriate? The tenants will expect—”

“The tenants,” William interrupted with pointed precision, “will receive their usual Christmas boxes and additional coal ration. Beyond that...”

He trailed off, a flickering of emotion crossing his features before he masked it. Charlotte studied him over the rim of her teacup, noting the familiar signs of internal struggle that she had learned to read so well. The slight tension around his mouth, the way that his fingers gripped his letters too tightly, the careful way that he held himself as though physically restraining some stronger emotion.

“William.” She set her cup down with deliberate gentleness. “What memory haunts you so about Christmas celebrations? What ghost of seasons past makes you flinch from even discussing the possibility?”

His hands stilled on the papers before him, and for a moment Charlotte thought he might retreat behind his habitual walls once more. Yet much had changed between them these past months - as though having faced one painful truth together had made others less daunting.

“The last Christmas before my father died,” he said finally, his deep voice pitched so low that she had to lean forward slightly to catch the words. “Everything was perfect - decorations throughout the house, guests filling every bedroom, festivities that seemed endless... And all of it built on foundations of sand. Within months, the true extent of his debts became clear. Those same guests who had enjoyed his lavish hospitality were the first to turn their backs on him when the scandal broke.”

Understanding dawned like winter sunrise, gradual yet illuminating.

“You associate Christmas celebrations with your father’s excesses,” she said softly. “With Alverton’s near-ruin.”

“Perhaps.” William’s jaw tightened slightly. “Though that sounds rather melodramatic when stated so plainly.”

“Not melodramatic,” Charlotte corrected gently, rising to move around the breakfast table towards him. “Human. To have watched such carefully maintained appearances collapse, to have shouldered the burden of rebuilding at such a young age... William, no one could blame you for hesitating to revisit memories of that time.”

He looked up then, and the open vulnerability in his eyes made her heart ache.

“Yet you would have me embrace such celebrations again? After everything...”

“I would have you create new memories,” she said carefully, letting her hand rest on his shoulder. “Not the excessive entertainments your father preferred, but something simpler. Something true to who we are now, to what we have built together.”

The fire crackled softly in the grate as William absorbed her words. Outside, fresh snow dusted the formal gardens, and somewhere in the distance church bells chimed the hour with muffled resonance.

“We?” he repeated finally, something softening in his expression despite his lingering resistance. “You speak as though you have already planned every detail.”

“Not every detail,” Charlotte said softly, her heart warming as William’s hand rose to cover hers where it rested on his shoulder. “Though perhaps I have given some thought to how we might mark the season without compromising your principles of careful management. Would you be willing to hear my suggestions?”

“These suggestions of yours,” William said carefully, though something like amusement touched his stern features. “They would not involve filling every bedroom with guests? Or excessive decorations throughout the house?”

“Nothing so elaborate,” Charlotte assured him, though joy filled her at this first sign of possible yielding. “I had thought perhaps just family - Edmund and your sister Margaret, of course, my father if he can be spared from London. A single dinner where others beyond that might be invited. And decorations confined to the main rooms that we actually use, focusing on traditional greenery rather than expensive ornamentation.”

Something eased in William’s expression as she spoke - a softening around his eyes that suggested memories less painful than those which had at first made him resist.

“Traditional greenery,” he repeated softly. “Like the holly and ivy my mother used to gather from the estate woods? She always said imported decorations could never match the beauty of what grew on our own land.”

Charlotte’s breath caught at this rare mention of his mother. William spoke so seldom of either parent that each such revelation felt like a precious gift to be treasured.

“Exactly so,” she said gently. “Mrs. Walden mentioned that there are still holly trees near the old kitchen garden. And I noticed ivy growing thick along the garden wall when we walked there last week.”

“I remember helping gather it as a boy,” William said, his voice taking on that distant quality that suggested he spoke from deep memory. “Before everything... that is, in happier times. The Housekeeper would send out the gardener’s boys with baskets, but Mother insisted on choosing some herself. She said the prettiest berries always grew just out of easy reach.”

“Then perhaps,” Charlotte suggested softly, as William’s expression continued to soften with remembered joy, “we might gather some ourselves this year? Create new memories to stand alongside the old?”

William rose from his chair with easy grace, though his hand maintained its gentle grip on hers, as it fell from his shoulder to her side.

“And what other traditions would you restore?” he asked, his deep voice holding that tender gravity that never failed to make her pulse quicken. “Beyond the gathering of greenery?”

“I thought we might have Cook prepare some traditional dishes - nothing excessive, but perhaps a few special treats for the servants? And maybe...” She hesitated, then pressed on. “Maybe we could have some music in the evenings? Margaret plays so beautifully.”