Page 106 of Golden Ruin

Now.

She has my dick in one hand and lowers my waistband with the other until I’m fully exposed, dying to be inside her. But we’re moving so fast, I almost forgot.

“Shit. Condoms,” I breathe against her. “I tossed them when I packed for the move.”

She’s completely still.

“Fuck!” I bite out, pissed I didn’t think about this before. “I uh… I’ll pick some up tomorrow. I just… Damnit!”

I lift off her a little, pushing a hand through my hair, knowing we’ll have to stop here.

“Sterling.” My jaw warms when her hand lands there, turning my face toward hers. “We don’t have to wait. I’m… on the pill.”

Her dark eyes are fixed on mine again. I’m completely lost in her, fully understanding what this means. Understanding where this leads. Her gaze drops between us as she pushes her hand down the length of my cock, and my lips are on hers the next second.

My head spins while she touches me. Yes, because she knows me so well, remembers how I like her to handle me, but mostly because I’m reading between the lines of what she just said.

When this started, it felt impulsive. But now, after looking into Lexi’s eyes, things feel different.

Because when she looked at me, considered all her options… she chose to trust me.

The kiss feels more urgent now, and telling myself to slow down will only work for so long. Not when she’s touching me like this, not when she’s the one pulling me closer. I’ve spent all night making sure I don’t push, making sure I don’t take more than she’s ready to give. But she’s showing me she’s done fighting this too, and for the first time, what we want is perfectly aligned.

A sound to my left barely registers at first, but then it sounds again.

Lexi’s phone.

“Ignore it,” I groan against her neck, letting my cock brush against the smoothness of her inner thigh.

“But what if it’s–”

She stops just short of saying Jax’s name, but we’re both thinking it as the ringing continues. Both feeling it–the disconnect, the concern.

I stare at her body, her bare tits shifting as she leans toward the coffee table. My mouth closes around her nipple when I can’t help myself, listening as she takes the call.

“Hey. Everything okay?”

There’s silence while someone speaks on the other end.

“Okay. See you guys soon.”

She drops the phone to the floor, and those words send tension pulsing through me. And apparently, Lexi too. Her head drops back against the cushion as she covers her face with both hands.

“Shit.”

I’m out of breath, feeling my heart race as I stare at her.

“Everything okay?”

She keeps her hands over her face when she nods. “Yeah. But Mom and Benny are at the gate. Jax wanted to come home because he knew you were getting in tonight. Guess he changed his mind about staying over.”

Physically, the changeup frustrates the hell out of me. But on the flipside, I get it.

I press a kiss to her stomach as she calms down, smiling as she clenches her fists in frustration.

“We’re not done. We’ll just have to take a raincheck.”

She nods, agreeing with me, but there’s no missing that she’s upset. Not with Jax, just with the delay. I know because I feel the same fucking thing.