Page 45 of Whip’s Wisdom

“Can we do this later? Knox and I have to go somewhere and you have to get to the clubhouse.”

“You’ve been telling me for months you were going to tell me your secrets and you’ve failed to do that, so forgive me if I don’t believe you will actually tell me what the fuck is going on now if I let you wait.”

“Well, I’m sorry it’s a long story and all the fucked up details will need to wait until I have more time. So let’s get your ass on the back of my bike or Knox’s bike so you can head to the clubhouse.”

She huffs at me and turns and walks away. I know she’s pissed, I get it. I told her when I decided that I wanted to win her back I would go through all the fucked up details of my childhood, but I haven’t. I’m sure that is one more strike against me because she is still in the dark. I get it, I fucked up for so many reasons, but I’ve showed that I am not going anywhere. I wish she would just cut me a little bit of slack. The shit with my family is not easy to talk about. I just need a little breathing room.

Five minutes later she comes out of the bedroom with a bag and heads for the door not saying anything to either myself or to Knox. Knox chuckles and follows her outside and surprise surprise she is already on the back of Knox’s bike waiting for us to leave. I roll my eyes and climb on the back of my bike and we head towards the clubhouse.

When we get to the clubhouse all of my brothers that are coming with me and all of Knox’s brothers that are coming are standing outside. Peyton looks around and when she sees her brothers she walks over and gives them all hugs before she walks over to Knox gives him a kiss on the lips and heads inside. So that just won’t work for me, so I look at my brothers and tell them I will be right back and they chuckle. I follow Peyton inside and she is making her way to the side stairwell that leads up to our apartment. So I grab her arm and turn her around, pinning her against the wall.

“What are you doing, Cooper?” She practically hisses at me.

“Why don’t I get a goodbye kiss?”

“Well, for many reasons, the first being I’m not your ol’ lady.”

That right there pisses me off because she knows that is not true, she might not have accepted it, but she is my ol’ lady. This woman is going to be the death of me I swear. I bring my body so it is up against hers and she has to tilt her head up to maintain eye contact.

“You know that is bullshit. So how bout we stop with the games and the tantrums and be a big girl here.”

She goes to move her knee, but she can’t because of where I am standing.

“That wouldn’t be a wise move there, baby. We both know you want that fully functioning later.”

“Yeah, in your dreams there, Whip.”

I move my hand and place it in her hair pulling her hair so she makes eye contact with me.

“I know you’re pissed. I get it, you’re being left in the dark. I told you I would tell you all my shit and I haven’t. I’m sorry about that. It is not something I like to talk about, my family. My past wasn’t sunshine and rainbows with a mommy and a daddy that loved me like yours was. So you need to give me time to tell you my fucked up shit on my own time. Trying to punish me for not being ready to tell you is fucked up.”

“Yeah, well I’m not punishing you for not being ready to tell me all your dirty little secrets, Whip. I’m punishing you for how you’ve treated me. Newsflash asshole, you haven’t been kind to me for years. So far you’ve decided you wanted to be my old man a few months ago and I’m supposed to just jump for joy when there is still all this hurt. Then there are all these bitches who are telling me you are still fucking around with them, but after everything I’m just supposed to take your word that you aren’t doing jack shit. Yeah, okay. I trust you one hundred percent with all your secrets and lies.”

“Listen, I’ve been here for you for a year now. I know I fucked up when we were messing around those two years we were together. I know that I hid a lot and pushed you away a lot. I know I confused the fuck out of you because I couldn’t stay away. That’s on me. I’ve seen the error of my ways. I know I’ve got a lot to make up for, but I’m trying here. You have to give me some grace when it comes to my past, Peyton. Not a lot of people know about all of that.”

She looks me in the eyes and you can see her eyes searching mine trying to find any sort of lie that I might be telling her.

“Fine. Go deal with whatever it is you have to deal with. I’m going to bed.”

“Give me a kiss.”

She leans in towards me and rises on her tips or her toes and I decide to go the rest of the way bringing my mouth to hers and taking what I want. The kiss is not soft or gentle. There are a lot of feelings happening between the two of us and a lot of feelings she is not willing to admit to herself right now because she is trying to protect herself and I understand that. When we break a part I place my forehead on hers.

“I love you, I want you to hear that and know it is true. I have never in my life said that to anyone other than my little brother. You make me feel whole so please, just give me some time to sort my shit out. Know that my heart, my soul and my body belong to you.” I place my lips on hers again for a nice soft kiss and then move out of her space. She is breathing heavily and when her eyes meet mine there is some confusion in them.

“I love you and I will see you later.” I tell her before I turn and walk away knowing that if I don’t leave now, my brothers are going to be waiting longer for me to head out because I will be sliding inside of her.

About forty five minutes later we are pulling up outside of my parents trailer and from the looks of it they know we are here because the front door opens and out comes my mother and my bitch of a sister.

“Oh look mom, he brought friends.”

I roll my eyes and get off my bike and head up to where they are standing.

“You came to my home, what the fuck do you want?”

“Oh I thought that slut and that dumbass biker didn’t know you. That is what they repeatedly told me when I was there.”

I get up close to her face, “Don’t you dare talk about her like that!” I say and she flinches at the way my voice is deadly quiet. “You have no right to talk to her like that when you are who you are. You also don’t get to show up and make threats on anyone else’s property.”