Page 2 of Lash’s Love

She has such a large family within the club and also with all the brothers that are not blood who care about her and have been a part of her life for years, that it is so hard for everyone to see her like this. She basically has kicked me out of the house where I can only come to see my other kids. We had our first baby at 17 and got married at 18 after I got my patch and we both graduated from high school. So our oldest boy Declan is 10 years old, then there is Daisy who is 8, Dare who is 6, our twins Dash and Dallas are 4, and our youngest at the moment is Delaney and she is 2 years old. Sophie found out shortly before the events of four months ago that she was pregnant again, so she is now about five months pregnant and we should be finding out what we are having coming up at our next ultrasound.

She thankfully still allows her father and siblings to come over to see the kids, but everything is really strained. She is really struggling with the fact that a rival club took our kids and took her mother from her. She thinks that this would not have happened if we had just given these people what they wanted. But there would be so much more damage if we just give into them. This rival club is toxic and they are doing a lot of messed up things that even we think is not okay and try to protect our city from. Her sisters that are not members spend the most time over at the house, they know that she is struggling and she won’t let me be there for her like I want to.

Right now, I am sitting at the bar at the clubhouse waiting for church to start. I have been constantly working with Wizard, our tech guy to see if he can find anything about where my little boy and little girl are being held.. They send us messages every month with a picture to let us know they are still alive. In the picture they are being held in cages and look dirty each time we get a new one. They have given us a deadline as to when we need to give up the territory they want to encroach on as well as our docks we use for our not so legal business with the Moretti Family or they say they are going to sell my babies to the highest bidder. So we have been trying to find a clue as to where they are being hidden as well as who the heck in our club is a traitor. So, Wizard is looking through everyone’s records including the brothers, the prospects and the club whores. This morning I woke up to a text saying that they found the kids, so church today is going to be a discussion about what we do next. I know they have someone monitoring several properties now that they got an anonymous tip on where to look. It really was a lucky break after what appeared to be nothing for months.

I want to get out of here and over to my house to see if I can see Sophie and the kids. I know my oldest three are currently working with my mama on their school work and will have to be home in a few hours. Delaney I get to see more often now because Sophie refuses to send her anywhere, so we have set up a daycare within the clubhouse where some of the older ol’ ladies help watch her while Sophie is at work. My beautiful woman owns her own business, she owns a tattoo parlor that the club has a stake in, despite having our own tattoo parlor. Sophie did not want to work at our tattoo parlor and wanted to make her name out of the club, which I understand, plus I work at that tattoo parlor and she wanted to be her own boss and not want to have to work under me. I was not opposed to her working at Chaos Ink because I would love being around my woman every day, plus more of a chance to bend her over my chair and fuck her when we didn’t have clients. But my woman is stubborn and wanted to create something of her own so she started Daisy’s Ink about seven years ago. Before everything happened, I would go over there and bend her over her chair, even let her ride me, or even put her up on the wall in her space. She has asked me to not come around for the time being and I am trying to give her space except for when I go to the house, but it is getting to be too much, I miss my wife.

So I’m looking forward to getting out of here and going over to my house. Today is her day off, hoping that we get done with church before the kids can get out so I can talk to my wife, maybe get her to let me hold her for a little bit before we head out and hit up these warehouses this club is at. I know that Terror is going to insist on getting more help from other chapters of our club, so it will be more of a waiting game to get my kids. Which is killing me to think of what they are going through right now.

I’ve already worked out that Delaney is going to stay with my parents at the clubhouse while I go over there for a little bit where there are no kids present and hopefully no one visiting. I’ve got about thirty minutes before church is scheduled so I am going to sit here and get the prospect to give me a beer. I look up to see which prospect is currently working the bar and it’s Pete.

“Yo, Pete, can you grab me a beer man?”

Pete gives me a nod and walks over getting my usual and sets it down for me. I give him a nod of thanks and then take a seat on the stool. I really try hard not to stay in the common room or at the bar lately because apparently the club whores think that because I have been staying in my apartment at the clubhouse they have free reign with me, thinking my ol’ lady is out of the picture. So normally when I am here I stay in my apartment or around other brothers particularly the ones working hard to find my kids.

I hear “Hey baby” as I feel a hand try and wrap around my chest. I grab the hand and throw it off of me not sure which one of the whores it is who is trying to come up to me right now and proposition me. I turn and look and see that it is Cherrie, she is one of the whores that is trying to start trouble with my ol’ lady. I have heard from my brothers-in-law that Sophie has told them numerous times that she will be out around town at the grocery store or even at her shop and she’ll run into some of the whores. Particularly Cherries and Lips. For some reason they don’t seem to understand that I want no one else, but Sophie and she is all I have ever wanted since I was 14 years old. Plus there is a rule that the taken brothers are not to be messed with unless they approach you. I have and never would approach them, I do not find it appealing to share with my brothers. I love them all, but no way would I ever want a whore when I have the sexiest woman alive already wearing my ring and my patch. We are just having a bit of a hard time right now.

I look at Cherrie with disgust and shout, “You do not touch a taken brother, EVER! I do not want you, I have never wanted you. Stay the hell away from me and stay the hell away from my ol’ lady. If I hear one more time that you or any other whore here is trying to tell my woman that I am straying and that I have been in any of your nasty ass snatches I will bring it to the table and have you removed! Do you understand me?”

Cherrie nods her head with terror in her eyes and runs away.

“Wow, well I’m glad I don’t have to kick your ass for stepping out on my baby sister, but damn that was harsh.” I hear Thorn say as he comes up to take the stool next to the one I was sitting in. I take my seat and grab my beer and take a swig and look at Thorn.

“How is she doing?”

“You know Sophie, she puts on a brave face for everyone, but she really doesn’t talk to me anymore other than to complain about the whores. She doesn’t believe any of the bullshit they are saying, but it is stressful and with her being pregnant I think your little outburst was necessary. Hopefully they will lay off her. I don’t want anything to happen to this baby. She is struggling so much without Dash and Dallas, but she won’t lean on any of us. Is she still shutting you out?”

“Yeah, she only lets me talk to her about the kids or be home when the kids are home and awake. I am going to be going over there after church if we get out with enough time to see her before we all have to roll out. I just want my wife back, I want our kids back too and I think we need to be in this together. I am hoping that I can give her some hope after what we talk about in church today.”

“Does Wiz have any leads on anything?”

“Yeah, he looked into one of the properties they seem to crash at. Seems promising, I hate that it has taken this long to find anything. I know that Morretti helped too.” I look around, “but that is something we probably should discuss at church”

“Man I am hoping we can give her something, but she feels that we all let mama and the kids down. This is not the Sophie we all grew up with. She is shutting down and cutting out her family. I mean even Parker and Peyton don’t get any information from her. I don’t know if she is talking to Ella and Jamie about anything, but I hope she is. Especially if she is not leaning on you and you have always been her safe place. She just can’t separate you from the club and what is going on right now.”

“I walked into the house the other day and she was talking to Ella on the phone. It was really heartbreaking, I tried to go in and hold her, but the second she saw me she told her she had to go and hung up the phone. Then she put her wall back up. I just don’t know what to do, but I miss my wife and my best friend. I know she has Ella and Jamie, but she needs me and she is just not letting me be there.”

“Well hopefully after today we can give her some good news and hopefully we can raid those warehouses and find my niece and nephew. We need to get those balls of sunshine back safe and sound. I know they are tough little nuggets, but I can’t imagine how they are going through right now. Dash is always so strong and protective of his sisters, I am sure he is making sure she is not scared and putting up a fight for those Acid MC assholes.”

“I’m hoping that we get this whole situation taken care of tonight man, I want to go to church, go see my wife and give her a little hope, as well as bring my babies home. I know that some of our other charters will be here tonight as well as some of our allies from different clubs to try and raid as many warehouses as possible at once so it doesn’t give them time to move if we hit the wrong one. We will talk more in church, I don’t know who to trust around here anymore.”

Then just like that we hear Terror scream “CHURCH NOW”. We get up and head to the room where church is held, hand over our devices to the prospect who is watching the door Adam. We all take our seats and begin our chat. Hopefully this meeting brings some good news for me to share with Sophie. I want my family back.

Chapter Two

Sophie

Today is my day off from my beautiful thriving business, Daisy’s Ink. I’ve got about three other artists that work for me and am looking to hire a fourth one. With all my babies and this one on the way I want to have some more time to just be home with them especially after everything that has happened. It is so hard to trust anyone right now. Not only has the club brought these people into our lives that have attacked us left and right, but now they have taken three precious things from me. My mama was a beautiful woman and she was only 51 years old. She went to pick up the twins from preschool that day because Toby was running late because he had a change in his schedule at the shop. So he had to call my mama to go pick them up. I love Toby and I know that I would not have wanted this fate for him either, he is my life, my safe place, but if he had been there on time and picked up the kids would these monsters have had the opportunity to take out my mama and grab two of my babies? My mind is full of all these what ifs and I don’t even know if my kids are alive or what is being done to save them. All I get is it is club business, which is bullshit. I can’t handle not knowing what is going on with my babies. It is tearing me up inside and it is making me even angrier with my family for not telling me anything. This is part of why I have shut them all out.

I am dealing with the loss of my mama, two of my kids being who knows where and being used for who knows what, being pregnant, and not knowing how I feel about my family anymore. My husband has been my best friend since before I can remember, but that dynamic changed when we decided to act on our feelings at 14 and become more than friends. He has been my everything since then and I have never once looked at it and doubted him or that he is the one for me. I just can’t comprehend how any of these people who claim to love me so much can keep me in the dark so long about what is going on. I get there are things they cannot tell me, but giving me some hope about what is going on with my children is something they should not keep from me. It is stressing me out and I am an emotional mess right now. Add everything on to the fact that I am five months pregnant, my husband should be here, our family should be together, but I just don’t know how to feel. I allow him to come see the kids, but I try to remain scarce when he is here. He also comes with me when I have doctor appointments. The man always told me he wanted a large family like the one I have and the one he has, but I never thought he would try and keep me knocked up forever.

Today I am in my art studio in the back of the house trying to work through my emotions. I love art in all forms, today I am painting on canvases. When we had our home built on club land, Toby made sure that we had loads of space and privacy. We have our own drive that you can only get to from the opposite side of the gate. The security we have is crazy and I understand why it is necessary and very thankful for it, that is why the kids have stayed on club land since this has happened, the school has been so understanding and providing myself and my mother-in-law with everything to help finish the school year.

I don’t really let the kids go to the clubhouse anymore either, the only exception is Delaney when I need to work she goes to the daycare set up there and she is with ol’ ladies that I trust. Today my in-laws Rocky and Annie decided they wanted to take Delaney to their house on club land and have her for the night. They even offered to take the other kids after they finished schoolwork at their house since it is the weekend. I agreed to let them have them knowing that they are secure in the gate of the property and Rocky has as much security as we do because of Wiz. I thought about having Ella and Jamie over, but I just don’t want to be around anyone today. I am really feeling it today and my emotions are everywhere, it has officially been four months without my mama and without my little angels. So I am going to paint and just keep to myself today.

Maybe I can start selling my paintings again. That was something I have done in the past and we do have a nice savings from it. Since I’m hiding away in my art studio it would be the perfect time to work out some new work that I could sell.

I do need to send a message to Toby about the kids staying with his parents today so he will not have to come to the house to see them. Hopefully he will not come by then if the kids are not here. I know this time apart has been hard, but I am just having a hard time not blaming him or my brothers for what has gone on with our family and with my kids. I even have a hard time talking with my sisters. I just don’t have the trust I need right now and I am so hurt and overwhelmed. I don’t know if I will let Toby back into our home or our bed, I miss him like crazy and I know he misses me too, you can see it in his eyes when he is here.