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“Yeah, they talked with Ameilia and Harper they both agreed they can hold the fort down for them so they can help you get everything settled. I need a list of everything you are going to need. I know what the horses need to travel, but I want to make sure you are all set at your new home. Maybe talk to Abby and see what all the girls have done since you left.”

“I have talked to Abby and the girls every day that I’ve been here. They have sent pictures and everything. Progress has really come along. I can’t believe as much has been done in such a short amount of time.”

“I told you I wanted you to have your dream without struggling. So I made sure those carpenters were paid nicely. What horses are you bringing? Are you bringing all of them this trip? What about the dogs?”

“I think I want to bring Magnolia, Whiskey Sunrise, Wildflower, Texas Trouble, Midnight Rebel and Honeybee. I plan on looking into getting more horses when I get everything set up. Some for myself and then obviously some therapy horses. I’m sorry to tell you this, but I want to bring Bandit, my boy needs to be with me. Then Daisy, Boone and Pepper.”

Dad laughs and says, “I figured Bandit was going to be getting a new home, hate to see him leave, but he always wants you even when you’re not here. The other three were always yours as well. If you need help with finding any horses or wanting some stallions for breeding, let me know. I would love to come out and help you figure all of that out. I will get everything set up for you to head out tomorrow. I’ll let Rhett and Jax know.”

“Okay daddy, thank you. Finn did tell me he wanted to come as well.”

“I like that idea, it would be good to have his advice on security measures. Especially now that you’ve got my grandbaby on the way. Now, go take care of those horses. When that’s done you come back inside, mama will have breakfast ready.”

I nod my head and head out to the barn.

Chapter Eighteen

Rage

We are in the waiting room waiting to hear about what is going on with Whip. Everyone is on edge and I feel like I am going to jump out of my skin. I’ve been texting Rose on and off for days now and haven’t heard anything back. But this morning she finally replied to me and I feel like I am one moment short of losing my shit. With everything going on I don’t know what to do any more. I don’t know how dad has been so fucking calm finding out he has another sone almost thirty years later. I think I would lose my shit. I already found out about Mason ten years later and I want to destroy the world that kept me away from him.

When I went to dad’s house the day we found out that Whip was possibly his kid, I lost my mind. I showed up after I went to a fight. I looked like hell from going rounds with multiple different fighters. I just didn’t give a fuck. I knew the neighbor was watching Mason and I knew that I didn’t have to worry about him being safe since he was somewhere not associated with the club. Everything about that night comes swimming back as I stare down at my hands.

I peel up the driveway on my bike and before I even get a chance to get off the bike my dad is already heading out of the house.

“Caleb, son, we need to talk.”

I climb off my bike and meet him halfway up the drive.

“Yeah, about what, dad? About the fact I have another fucking brother?”

“Caleb, you need to keep this shit down right now. Your brothers and sisters are asleep inside and I really don’t want to have to beat your ass for waking them up. It seems that you already had someone do enough of that for me. I don’t know why you are coming here so pissed off about something I can’t fucking control.”

I scoff and my fists clench at my sides.

“Maybe if you fucked different women then the whores you did, you wouldn’t have this problem. I mean shit old man, four different fucking baby mamas. Are any more going to come out of the woodwork or are we all caught up?”

“We do not know if Whip is actually mine. And don’t you fucking lecture me, Caleb. You are my son. I do not need you to tell me anything about how I should’ve lived my life before you even came in the fucking picture. We all make fucking mistakes and I lived my life like a single brother. Which I fucking was. We all do that shit. Don’t come at me.”

“Yeah we might all do that shit dad, but not everyone ends up knocking up four different women. The women you knocked up were real fucking winners. I mean look at this, Whip’s mom, she’s a fucking drug addict. A real piece of shit and I don’t even know half of what he went through, but his story sure has some similarities to mine. Then we have my fucking mother. A real gem she turned out to be. Fucking selling herself for money and for her next fix. I mean fuck she even di—--” I stop myself before I finish that sentence and I try to center myself, but I know dad and he caught on to how I was about to spill some secrets I haven’t in all the years I’ve been in his life.

“She even what, Caleb? What the hell did she do that turned you into this man right here? Why the hell do you have this hate for women so much? You are fine with the women your brothers are in relationships with and the women you grew up with, but when it comes to other women you shut down. You don’t let anyone in. You act like all women are the same, like they have plans to use you and then throw you away. Why the hell is that son? Talk to me? I need to know what is going on. Especially now, Cooper might be my son. I don’t want this to bring out more issues for you.”

“It doesn’t matter, dad. None of it fucking matters. What matters is yet again we are here dealing with more of your drama. I have dealt with it most of my life. I’ve had to deal with fucking bitches from the club trying to get with me because they were with you or they wanted you. I had to deal with all the shit talk I got around town. I had to deal with the fact that my dad has kids who are young enough to be mine because he fucked a woman five years older than me and decided to lock her down after she got pregnant the first fucking night. Let’s face it, you really haven’t shown me what a stand up woman looks like.”

His face is angry at this point and I know that if I was anyone else I would be laid out on the floor after insinuating that his ol’ lady was just a piece of fucking ass he was trapped with. He takes a step closer to me.

“You will not talk about Liz like that ever again. Do you fucking hear me? I told you this the last fucking time I heard you mouth off about her at the club. She deserves your mother fucking respect. She has not done anything to deserve your rage. I know I’ve not been the best example, but shit Caleb, I did the best I fucking could with the shit that I was given. I didn’t know anything about raising kids and then I had a newborn and an eight year old.”

“Whatever, dad. Let me know if I am throwing a welcome to the shit show party for Whip after you get the test results back.”

I hopped on my bike before he could say anything else and headed back to the apartment to Mason.

I knew that night that I was not really mad at my dad, I was mad at myself for letting history repeat itself. I just hope that I don’t let it repeat too much. I can’t lose Rose. I know I probably already have, she is back in Texas and I haven’t fucking heard anything from her since that phone call. I’ve sent her messages and I know that it is late and she probably hasn’t gotten any more of them, but I just want to know she is okay. I want to know my baby is okay.

“Family of Cooper Stone?”

All of us stand up and the doctor looks around at all of us with his mouth wide open.