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even know it’s there until it’s too late.

That’s another first. The day you woke up and realized you don’t matter. That nothing you do

matters. You don’t have control of anything or anyone and if you disappeared tomorrow the world

would keep going. People might miss you. They might think about you every now and then. They might

even shed a tear.

But here’s the cold, hard reality: You don’t matter.

In the big scheme of things, you make your mark, you die, and then others come along and wipe

your mark off the map.

Even the greatest thinkers and inventors in history will have their mark erased eventually. Put into

a footnote at the end of a research paper or a book only because the person who took your place stood

on your shoulders.

And very few people who have ever walked this Earth even get that far. Like… almost no one.

Most presidents and kings don’t even get that far.

That kind of residual influence is meant for the Albert Einsteins and Steve Jobs of the world, not

the Bostons.

So here I am.

On a boat in the Caribbean heading towards a city called Freeport so I can hook up with an old

friend who came to this same conclusion just about the time I was taking over my father’s role in the

Way.

He was the one who told me to beware of success.

He was the one who reminded me that the minute you reach the top you’re already falling.

He was the one who showed me that there’s always a way out. It just might require a lot of blood

on your hands and a very long time to get there.

I let Megan drive this ship. Literally. I don’t think she’s gonna take me someplace weird and off

schedule, but there’s no real way to know. And at this point, I’m just not sure I care. My plan is so

sloppy, it barely matters if it all happens on schedule. Hell, if Megan Machette did have her own plan

for me, that might work better.

At least I’d be pointed is some kind of direction instead of all this aimless wandering I seem to be

doing presently.

So I let her take over and just sit my ass down on a bench on the back deck of the boat and watch