Page 126 of Rebellious

Rebel: Something else I’ve never done.

Did she expect him to feel sorry for her?

Rebel: I guess you won’t do that either.

Diesel: You’re fucking right I won’t.

Rebel: Fine. How many positions are there?

It took a moment for Diesel to catch up to her topic change. He breathed a sigh of relief.

Diesel: As many as you can imagine.

Rebel: Can I ask your favorite?

Diesel: No.

Rebel: How did you learn about sex?

Diesel: By engaging in it.

Rebel: Starting at 15?

Diesel: Yes.

Rebel: I’ll be 15 in 29 days.

Diesel: Good for you. I turned THIRTY 17 days ago.

Rebel: I wouldn’t tell.

Diesel thought about his conversation with Torrin and Narci.

Diesel: Let’s forget about your father’s wrath, my potential death OR jail time. You wouldn’t have to tell. You wouldn’t keep it a secret. If I looked at a WOMAN, you’d lose your shit. And I’d have to keep up pretenses to hide our relationship. You couldn’t handle it.

Rebel: I’ll behave. I promise.

Diesel: Famous last words. You don’t know the fucking meaning.

Rebel:

Diesel: Why are you hellbent on torturing me? If you really love me in whatever capacity, you’ll stop.

Rebel: You’re giving me mixed signals. Haven’t YOU talked about making love to me?

Diesel: Rebel, for the love of all that’s fucking holy, STOP. I’m sending you mixed signals because I’m not right in the fucking head. What don’t you get about that? You don’t need someone as unstable as me in your life. You deserve sunshine and roses. I am nothing but darkness.

Rebel: You aren’t. You’re everything to me.

He told himself to stop engaging with her, their safer option. His wiser choice. He couldn’t imagine his fate if Uncle Christopher ever discovered these messages. Yet, Rebel’s nightmares concerned him. She needed him to help her get through this night and he’d allow nothing to stand in his way of that. Not even her.

Diesel: Sweetheart, let me be everything as your big brother. Let me be everything as Dee. Stick to that narrative.

Rebel: Can you?

Diesel: I must.

Rebel: