I set my phone face down beside the patient chart and reach for the pen clipped to my jacket pocket. Then I put the pen down, because I don't need it. Then I pick it up again, because having something in my hand makes me look occupied.
Dr. Harris pauses in the doorway of the exam room.
I don't look at him. “Josephine.”
“I’m updating the chart.”
“The chart is blank.”
I look down. It is, in fact, blank. “That’s because I’m thinking first.”
“Mm hmm.”
I lift my gaze. He’s watching me over the rim of his coffee mug with the kind of patience that suggests he’s about to be helpful in a way I will deeply resent.
“I’m fine,” I say.
“I didn’t ask.”
“You were going to.”
“I was considering it.” He glances at my phone. “Someone bothering you?”
“No.”
A pause.
“Someone not bothering you enough?”
I give him a flat look. “That's not a professional question.”
“No, but it was a good one.”
Before I can respond, my phone buzzes against the counter.
My entire body reacts.
It's deeply embarrassing.
Dr. Harris notices, because of course he does. He has the observational skills of a border collie and the tact to pretend otherwise only when it suits him.
I pick up the phone.
Clay.
My stomach tightens before I even read the message.
Can I see you on your lunch break?
That's all.
No joke or teasing nickname. No easy charm wrapped around the words to make them safer.
I stare at it until the screen starts to dim.
Dr. Harris clears his throat.
I lock the phone. “I’m taking lunch at noon.”