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God damn it.

So. Close.

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Lily stared down at the vibrator.

It was impossibly large. There was no way it would ever fit inside her. It was bigger than any of the men she'd ever been with.

But was it bigger than Harvey?

She was getting frustrated with their lack of, well, sex.

She wanted sex, and she wanted it now. Harvey had touched her, he’d kissed her, hell, he’d spanked her. But he didn’t seem to want to take that last step. It was like he thought she couldn't handle him.

And she got it. She really did.

Lily wasn't sure how she would react. Maybe she would freak out. Maybe it would be too much.

And that was why she'd gotten out the vibrator.

It was the one that Harvey had ordered for her ages ago, but she had never taken it out of the box. At the time, she'd been too traumatized after learning about what Dr. Wallace had done to her.

But now she was looking at it as a tool. She was going to see how she reacted to an orgasm.

All right, she knew it wasn't the same thing. This wasn't going to be the same as having Harvey touch her naked body, having him play with her, tease her, drive her higher and higher.

But maybe it would help her, and perhaps it would even take the edge off this arousal that seemed to be there all the time.

Only she wasn't sure what the hell she was doing.

With a groan, she sat down on the bed and picked up her phone, calling her sister.

“Yo, what's up?” Clem asked.

“I'm trying to use a vibrator,” Lily blurted out.

There was silence on the other end of the phone. Great. Even Clem was horrified by what she was doing.

“That's really not what I expected you to say,” Clem said. “You're feeling really comfortable with me now, aren't you?”

“Clem,” she groaned. “What am I going to do?”

“Show me,” Clem said.

She put her phone on video and then flipped the screen around so Clem could see the vibrator.

“Ooh, you got yourself a good one.”

She rolled her eyes at her sister's words. “Harvey bought it for me.”

“Harvey bought it for you? Now, there's a man who's not threatened by a nice, thick, long vibrator. Is he smaller or bigger than the vibrator?”

“I don't know,” she wailed. “That's the problem.”

“Wait, are you saying the two of you haven't had sex yet?” Clem asked.

“Yeah, that's why I got out the vibrator. He bought it for me a while ago, but I just haven't used it. I'm getting very frustrated.”