Page 133 of Luci’s Lullaby

The way you love us. ~A

Who said I still do?

Harsh! ~A

I’m gonna cry. ~A

PAHA-lease.

Wonder if Chord will hold me? ~A

He might.

Considering he covered your ass today.

I wanted to see you. ~A

I didn’t want you to run away. ~A

I might’ve.

If you had seen me in the floorboard. ~A

How did you ever fit? Lol

I was a pretzel. ~A

SMH, that’s what you get.

You should’ve told me.

I should’ve told you a lot. ~A

I’ll never make that mistake again. ~A

A heaviness lays on my chest making me struggle for air.

See that you don’t.

I don’t forgive easily.

I promise. The first of many. ~A

I need to get in bed.

Kill me now. ~A

I haven’t tried yet.

Goodnight. ~A

Night, Alden.

And that’s all. The texts stop coming and I’m alone again when the one person I want to be with wants to be with me, but I’m too scared to try again. He left. What if the next time we have several kids and he leaves?

“It’s a chance you can’t take.”

I pick up my phone and call my brother. Theo knows me better than anyone. On the third ring, I start to hang up, but I hear the click.