My brother. University Medical Center. The mugging that I was never sure was just a mugging.
It rose through me in a slow wave. Four months. Four months trying to convince myself that it was a random attack. Of running the math in my head over and over. Of driving out here every Thursday to bleed for money that drained straight into the hole somebody had dug for my brother. Nobody random put Liam in that bed. Liam got put there by someone who wanted me right here, in this ring, bleeding for cash, being built into a product.
My hands wouldn't stop shaking. Something with heat under it this time, not adrenaline.
"I said no." Louder now. The front rows went still. "I don't care what you threaten me with. I'm not killing a man so you've got something to watch."
His head tipped, a fraction, the way something huge considers something small in front of it. Then the patience came back, and the amusement sitting under it, like my no was a minor thing he'd run into before and knew wouldn't hold.
Two fingers lifted off the rail and pointed at the floor.
The enforcers moved before I could turn. One clamped down on my shoulder. The other drove a fist into my gut, short and hard, and the floor came up to meet me, my knees and palms on the mat, lungs scraped empty. The first one hauled me upright before I'd dragged a breath back in.
"Walk." Close to my ear, the heat of the word landing on my skin.
They shoved me toward the ropes. I could hear boots behind me on the platform, the scrape of the beaten man getting dragged along too.
My chest met the hemp and it bit, coarse and dry against wet skin. I caught the top rope, braced against it, and looked up toward the crowd.
The whole room narrowed down to one spot.
Three rows deep, in the middle of all the noise and the press and two hundred churning bodies, one face wasn't participating.
He was still. Wrong-for-the-room still.
Young. A clean jaw shadowed with stubble, a black T-shirt pulled tight over lean, muscled arms. Something boyish still sat in his face, too soft for a place that was trying its hardest to sand it off anyone who walked in. But it was the eyes that hit me harder than the stillness.
Ice-blue. Pale enough that they caught the sodium light and threw it back. They were locked on me, and the focus behind them cut through the crowd and the smoke.
Everyone around him was moving, animated, caught up in the churn of the room. He existed outside of it. He looked at me the way I look at a man across the ring, reading everything, missing nothing. Except this wasn't a fighter's read.
Two seconds passed. Maybe less.
Then one of the enforcers wrenched my arm and I lost sight of him. The bodies shifted and closed, and when my eyes came back to the same patch of crowd I saw him in…
He was gone.
He wasn't shoving his way out. He wasn't ducking down behind the row in front. I would've seen that.
He was just gone, the crowd sealed over the spot he'd been in a second ago. Nobody crossed three rows of packed, drunk bodies without one shoulder turning, one head following. Nobody. I'd have written him off as a trick of the light, a face I'd built out of stress and adrenaline, except the eyes were still sitting behind mine, pale and cold and burned in.
A man who could stand dead center in two hundred people and then, between one blink and the next, just not be there… A man who moved like a ghost.
One of the enforcers cracked a hand between my shoulder blades and shoved me stumbling toward the steps. They hauled me down off the platform. Liam's name was still hanging in that giant stranger's mouth, and the fear and the fury of it ran hot under everything else.
But somewhere down under the rage, low and stubborn and useless given the two men dragging me toward a back door, one thing held steady.
The blood was going tacky on the mat, and the crowd was already baying for the next body, and somewhere out in all of it, that ice-blue stare had been the only thing that looked at me like a man, and not a product.
Whatever he'd come to see, I doubted it was the fight.
2
LOCKDOWN
GHOST
My knee was bouncing again.