Page 34 of Love Limits

Finally, Dustin looked up. I care about you a lot, whatever we call it. I like spending time with you and doing special things that make you smile. He kissed Zhong’s forehead.

That was how Zhong had always talked about their… relationship. Doing special things and making each other smile. That pretty much wrapped it all up. Yeah, me too, he finally agreed.That was all he could think of to say. He needed some time and space to figure this out. Maybe pull out his notebook.

They snuggled together for a moment, but when Dustin pulled back he was brooding again.

Zhong poked him in the belly. What are you thinking about?

God, sorry. I was thinking about Landon again. That’s totally rude. Especially since I was just telling you how important you are to me. And you are important,he emphasized, eyes professing his emotions.

Zhong knew it was true. He just wasn’t the center of Dustin’s world like he had once been.

The two of them were a total mess today. No, it’s OK. I know how sex takes over your brain and turns you into a mindless zombie.

Dustin smacked his thigh. I wasn’t thinking about sex. That’s not all I think about.

You were thinking about kink, then.

Dustin was so busted, even though he tried to deny it. I… maybe. But we can talk about you some more.

Zhong laughed, knowing that at most he’d get about seventy percent of Dustin’s attention. Dustin always wanted to talk things out, but Zhong needed time to think on his own. Zhong would come back to it when he was ready. Nope. Tell me more about Landon.

Do you hate me?

No, I still love you. Seriously, tell me everything. We’ll get this figured out.

OK. So… you were going to tell me something that Ash said. Before we got distracted.

Oh, right! Ash mentioned that there was a kink called age play. He wasn’t sure how much he could reveal about Ash’s interests, though Ash didn’t seem shy about it. Maybe if Landon is acting like a kid, he wants to be a kid. Or pretend to be a kid or something. And have Daddy take care of him. I don’t know much, but the Daddy bit seems to be the most important. He would definitely have to do some research.

Dustin’s face grew red and he swallowed a few times.

Zhong held back a smirk. It was hilarious that Dustin was the one who wanted to do all of this stuff, but he could barely talk about it. He clearly liked something Zhong had said or he wouldn’t be impersonating a tomato right now. It’s cool if that’s your thing. Maybe you two want to try diapers or something.

Dustin’s eyes grew bigger. No, not diapers.

Zhong tried to decide whether he thought diapers were more or less weird than sex. Maybe more? Though he supposed everyone had to pee. And diapers would catch it all, right? They had to be pretty absorbent. It didn’t make sense to him, but then again, it didn’t have to.

What are you thinking? he prompted. I know you’re already imagining something about what I said.

Dustin actually squirmed, like he was trying to get away from the question. He eventually answered. I can’t figure it out. I was just thinking that, well, Landon really does act like a teenager sometimes. Or maybe an older child? So taking care of him… He hid his face in his hands, then moved them so he could sign. It’s arousing. Does that make me a perv? But then, it’s also sweet, like I want to protect him. And then I kind of like how rebellious he is? It doesn’t make any sense.

It’s not pervy. It’s a kink. And I think you actually described what it’s supposed to be about.

I’m so in over my head.

Zhong pulled the tablet from Dustin’s hands. Time for… research! With a few clicks, he led them down a dizzying pathway of websites, Reddit posts, and, yes, eventually some videos.

The videos were… disturbing. It wasn’t just that they were sexual, which he could ignore—sex remained incomprehensible, ranging from icky to boring.

What was upsetting was that everyone in the videos looked so unhappy. Apparently there was a thing where someone got forced into being a baby, but even when the little was looking for a Daddy, they looked miserable. Their eyes were sad or hard, pretending something for the camera.

Maybe they’d just found the wrong videos, though they’d tried PornHub, YouTube and TikTok.

Zhong hoped it was better in real life. The blogs made it all sound very sweet, a kind of caring communication between the little and the Caregiver. That part made a lot more sense.

It wasn’t something Zhong thought he would ever seek out, but he could see it. The adoration that some of the littles and Caregivers described was something beautiful to read. He could see why Ash would love it.

Ash was already so sweet, their enthusiasm spilling over with the smallest treat or encouragement. It was nice to understand that about them.