Page 31 of Bittersweet Redemption

“Deep breath,” he warns. I do as I’m told and brace myself. He shoves himself down my throat. I gag, and my eyes burn at the intrusion, but I don’t tap his thighs. I can do this. I want to do this. His hands hold my head in place while his hips thrust. Every third thrust, he pulls out to let me catch my breath.

“Fuck, your throat feels amazing, Willa. Exactly how I imagined your pussy would be.” Hearing that he’s thought about what I would feel like wrapped around him sends heat straight to my core. Maybe he’s wanted me as bad as I’ve wanted him.

He pumps hard and ruthlessly into my throat. At first it feels uncomfortable, but after a few deep breaths, I relax into his movements, and my throat accepts him. The noises I’m making from him pushing past my barriers turn him on even more. “Look at you taking my cock so well. Your throat was fucking made for me, wasn’t it, baby?”

I don’t answer him. I can’t. But I hum in response because it feels so good knowing this pleases him. Tears stream down my face and mix with my saliva, but he doesn’t stop. He told me what to do if it was too much, and I haven’t done it yet. I want him to take this from me.

I feel him start to tense, and his grip on my head tightens. He pulls out again and warns me. “I’m not pulling out again until I come down your throat, so take a deep breath now.”

He pushes back in. In and out. In and out. Until he presses my head firmly into his lower stomach. I breathe from my nose as best I can. He folds over me slightly and empties into me. I feel the hot spurts of liquid going down my throat, and his body shakes around me.

I love this. I love that I did this to him.

When he’s finished, he releases my head and pulls himself from my mouth, letting me take a breath. He’s covered in my saliva, and it feels like I’ve marked him somehow. I use my hand to wipe the spit and tears off my face.

Kai drops to his knees in front of me and holds my face again. But this time, it’s gentle, like he’s proud of me. “You did so good, baby.” I smile at his praise.

His eyes are trained on my swollen lips. I know he wants to kiss me, but he’s not sure if he should. I stay still in his grasp while he decides. Finally, he leans in and brushes his lips against mine. The feel of my lips unlocks something in him because he’s sliding his tongue into my mouth, licking my own before I realize what’s happening. It’s sensual and personal and feels like he’s rewarding me somehow.

When he’s finished, he pulls away, nipping at my lip with his teeth. He drops his hands, and it makes me miss him.

His eyes harden as he roams my face, and his jaw clenches before he finally says, “Go.”

My heart crashes inside my chest. “What?”

“You did what you came to do, so go.” He stands, kicks off his pants, and walks toward his bathroom, leaving me kneeling on the floor, red-faced and tear-stained.

I knew this was just a release to him. I wasn’t expecting him to cuddle or even fuck me. But I also didn’t expect him to dismiss me so coldly.

Slowly, I stand, debating if I should follow him and ask why he’s being like this. But I have a feeling it’s not me he’s mad at. I think he liked touching me and me touching him too much, and he’s mad he feels like that. I could see the lust in his eyes when he stood above me. It was nothing like the cool indifference he usually meets me with.

I’m not giving him the satisfaction of letting him know he’s hurt my feelings, so I leave his bedroom without another word.

Chapter 16

Willa

The morning after my orgasm exchange with Kai, I wake up feeling relaxed, refreshed, and surprisingly not at all embarrassed. If anyone should feel embarrassed, it should be Kai for acting like a total jerk at the end of the night when he’s the one who started it in the first place. I didn’t invite him into my room. He walked in when he could have just as easily kept walking down the hallway. And I can’t say that my feelings weren’t hurt by how he dismissed me.

I only have a few appointments today before meeting Nick to get Roman back. I can’t wait to have my baby with me.

I got a text from my landlord yesterday letting me know that the roof has been fixed, but some appliances for the kitchen are on back order right now. Basically, we can move back in if we don’t need a refrigerator or a stove. My landlord thinks it will only be another few weeks for the appliances to come in, so I’ve opted to stay with Kai until it’s fixed. I haven’t actually talked to him about it, but I will. . . when the time is right.

I make a quick breakfast before going out the door without seeing Kai. His bedroom door is shut, but if he hears me, he doesn’t bother coming out to say anything. Not that I expect him to. I know I need to push him out of my mind. I can’t waste my time on a man who doesn’t care.

* * *

The salon is empty this morning except for Kayla, who’s folding towels from the laundry yesterday when I walk in.

“Willa!”

“Hey. . .?” I ask, curious about her excitement at seeing me this morning. Sure, we’re good friends, but it’s also nine in the morning, and she’s never been a morning person. “What’s going on?”

She puts down the towel she just folded and comes to my station, where I’m putting my purse away.

“Ok, so hear me out,” she starts.

I groan. “Oh, god.”