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I’d almost hit our baby.

I’d lost control again. Even though I promised I wouldn’t. I let Emma down. I closed my eyes and sucked in a breath. I wasn’t okay. I wasn’t in a good frame of mine. I wasn’t me.

This couldn't happen again. Not here. I couldn’t guarantee that.

I had to leave.

It was the only solution. Emma and Jackson deserved better. I wouldn’t keep putting them in danger. I needed to work on myself, my emotions.

“I’m sorry Emma.”

I hobbled back to the guest room and started throwing clothes into my training bag. After I packed everything that I had stored down here, I headed to the bathroom.

I heard the bedroom door open and went to see who it was.

Hartman and Reese stood in front of the closed door with their arms crossed.

“What are you guys doing here?”

“Kendall called,” Hartman said.

I shouldn’t have been surprised. Of course, she told him what I’d done.

I turned and went back into the bathroom. I packed my toothbrush and shampoo and then Hartman appeared at the entrance. “What are you doing?”

I glanced at the duffle on the counter. “What does it look like?”

“Where are you going?”

I shrugged and picked up my conditioner and body wash.

“Have you thought more about the rehab option?” Reese had joined us in the bathroom that suddenly felt too small.

“No.”

He groaned. “Then where are you going?”

“Not here.” I threw everything in and zipped the bag closed.

“You’re deserting your wife?” Hartman accused.

“No.” I nearly growled. “I can’t control myself. If I stay here, I could hurt her or my son. I need to figure myself out. I need to get better.”

Reese nodded. “At least you realize you need help.”

“But you need a plan, Letang,” Hartman said. “I’m not going to let you walk out of here upset. I want you to stop and think things through.”

I pushed through both of them and paced the length of the room. “I don’t know where I’m going. I just know I’m not going to some rehab center. I can get the physical therapy I need with Madi. I’ll find someone to help with the other part.”

They shared a look.

“You can’t stay with me.” Reese announced. “Chloe made that clear.”

“Me either.”

I was a little taken back by that. I should have seen it coming through. They weren’t going to make this easy on me. I’d crossed a line.

“I’m assuming the same goes for the rest of the team?”