Page 12 of Jury Woman, Part 3 of 6

"I do too," Josh muttered, the first real defensiveness I'd heard from him all call.

I tried to steer us somewhere steadier. "I know it's a lot to manage. I put that chore chart on the fridge before I left—maybe you two could split things up between you, just until I'm home. Even a little bit would help."

Lily's face changed instantly, the flatness cracking into something harder. "So now we're supposed to just do your whole job? While you're what, getting room service and watching movies in a hotel?"

"That's not remotely what this is."

"Dad says it is." Her voice had gone brittle, close to breaking in a direction I couldn't predict. "You left. You get to sit in your little bubble away from all of this, and we're supposed to hold everything together and smile about it."

"Lily, that's not fair, and it's not true. And I won't let you speak to me that way."

"Are you going to ground me through a screen?"

Josh stood abruptly, mumbled something I didn't catch, and walked out of frame without looking back.

"Josh—" I started, but he was already gone, a door closing off camera.

Lily stared at me a moment longer, unreadable, then reached toward the laptop. "Buh-bye," she said, and the screen went black before I could answer.

I sat there for a few seconds, turning over the sick certainty that whatever version of my family existed on the other side of this trial might not resemble the one I'd left behind.

In a bad way.

September 17, Thursday

I'D NOTICED juror number five Denise Okafor before today—three seats down in the box, always the first to open a legal pad the moment a witness took the oath, her handwriting small and dense, like she was accustomed to filling margins. But it wasn't until this morning, watching her watch a forensic accountant walk us through a wall of spreadsheets, that I really saw her.

Whenever a witness waxed on too long, she adopted the expression of someone bracing for a sales pitch. It happened again today when the accountant, a crisp man in his forties, delivered a line about the shell companies with the polish of something rehearsed in front of a mirror. Denise's pen stopped moving.

At the break, I found myself beside her at the coffee station in the jury room, the kind of proximity that either turns into conversation or doesn't.

"You look like you're grading the witness," I said, nodding back toward the courtroom.

She laughed, surprised into it. "Occupational hazard. I teach eleventh-grade English. Ten years of reading essays that argue with way more confidence than the evidence supports." She stirred creamer into her coffee. "You get an ear for it. When somebody's performing certainty instead of actually being certain."

"And was he? Performing?"

"A little. Not lying, necessarily. Just—overselling. Like he'd practiced the delivery more than the substance." She shrugged. "I could be wrong. I usually give people the benefit of the doubt before I don't."

I liked her instantly. She looked young to me—twenty-something, maybe—but there was nothing green about the way she picked apart testimony. If anything, she seemed the most alert of any of us, unwilling to let the sheer volume of evidence lull her into nodding along.

Back in the box that afternoon, the digital forensics witness took over, walking us through cell tower data and a maze of location pings meant to place one of Blackthorne's lieutenants near a warehouse the night of a delivery. Many of the jurors were already glazing over, but Denise leaned forward, pen moving fast, occasionally underlining something twice.

When the defense tried to poke a hole in the tower triangulation—suggesting the signal could've bounced off a neighboring tower, muddying the location by half a mile—I watched Denise write half mile = reasonable doubt? and circle it twice.

I thought about what that meant for the deliberation room, whenever we finally reached it. I imagined the twelve of us gathered around a table, some of us ready to believe whatever felt most likely, and Denise sitting there refusing to let the room move on until every underlined word had been accounted for. I had a feeling I'd be grateful for that, eventually—for someone in the room who graded the case the way she graded a mediocre thesis statement, unwilling to accept a conclusion just because it arrived wearing confidence.

Walking back to the vans that evening, she fell into step beside me, mentioning she still had a stack of practice essays in her hotel room waiting to be graded. "I told my kids six months wasn't going to be an excuse for me to stop caring whether they can write a topic sentence," she said, half-laughing, half-serious.

I found myself hoping, as we climbed into the van, that whatever friendship was starting between us would hold long enough to matter later—when the evidence stopped being abstract, and twelve of us had to actually agree on what it meant.

Without saying it out loud, I realized I was already looking for jurors who would be allies—and antagonists—when deliberations began.

September 18, Friday

I CLOCKED juror number six Rodger Benson's calendar before I really clocked Rodger.

It was Ashanti who'd mentioned it first, in the hallway a week or two back, something offhand about him crossing off days like a man serving a sentence, and once I knew to look, I saw the evidence everywhere—the little pen he kept clipped to his shirt pocket, the way his eyes flicked to the wall clock above the jury box door with regularity. Today, watching him from two seats over, I finally understood what Ashanti meant.