As soon as they left, I lit another blunt. Stupid.
By day six, I stopped keeping track of time completely.
The suite stayed dark most of the day. I sat on the floor near the couch one night, scrolling through old pictures on my phone.
Family. Business launches. Cars. Women.
Sade.
I stopped on her picture longer than the others.
Her smiling at Crown Heights, holding fabric samples, smiling.
I stared at the picture until my eyes started burning.
“You don’t even know what you doing to me.”
I set the phone down after that and leaned my head back against the couch.
By day seven, I was too weak to even get mad at myself anymore. I took another hot shower and sat under the water until it turned cold against my skin. I stayed there anyway.
Afterward, I dragged myself back toward the couch, wrapped in a towel with another blunt in my hand.
I must’ve drifted off.
When I opened my eyes again, somebody was standing in front of me.
BBW figure. Pretty face. Long hair.
Soft perfume floating off her jacket.
I blinked hard, thinking my mind was playing tricks again.
But she didn’t disappear.
She looked real.
Her eyes moved around the room, then at me,
I sat up too fast and rubbed my face.
“Oh my God, Vaughn. Are you okay?” Sade said softly.
I blinked. “What are you doing here? You weren’t supposed to see me like this.”
Sade
“I thought I was checking on my boss. Somewhere along the way, it stopped feeling like that.”
Imade it to the Ritz in twenty minutes at ten in the evening. I valet-parked my car, then went to the front desk. I lied and told them I was his wife, smiling and speaking softly, and they gave me a key. I found the elevator, my heart racing a bit, hoping I didn’t see anything devastating.
I found his room and quickly found out he was a resident. This man was richer than I thought. I found his room at the end of the hall. I took a deep breath before going inside. When I went in, the room was so dark and reeked of smoke.
I didn’t even think you could smoke in hotels, but a nigga like Vaughn could probably do anything they want. I used my light on my phone to find him.
I looked around and found him in a chair by the window, towel around his waist, eyes closed, with a trash can beside him.
I walked over to him. “Oh my God, Vaughn. Are you okay?”