“You’d say that either way, sweetheart. Have you eaten?”
“I’ve eaten.”
She looks at me, just looks.
“I will eat,” I say eventually. “When I get home.”
“You did well in there,” she says, softer. “I know Ray put you on the spot but you needed to say your piece.”
“I know.”
She puts a hand on my arm, warm through the denim of my jacket, and then she takes it off again before I have to decide what to do about it.
“Drive safe,” she says. “Tell Caleb I said hello. Tell Matthew I’ll see him tomorrow.”
“I’ll tell them.”
She walks off toward her own car. I get in the truck and I sit for a second with both hands on the wheel, not doing anything, just breathing, before I turn the key.
The road home runs past the Linden site.
I could take the back way. I could go up over the ridge road and come out at my own gate from the north, but I don’t.
The site is lit up like a stadium. They’ve put portable floodlights on poles, and you can see from a quarter mile out. I can hear the pumps before I can see them, a low continuous thump I’ve been feeling in my molars for weeks now.
I don’t slow down or speed up. I hold the truck at a steady forty past the site, and I make myself look at it.
A mile past the site, on my own road, the floodlight glow fades out of the rear-view, and the pump noise drops off, and the dark comes back properly.
The kitchen light is on when I pull up to the house.
My brother Caleb is at the table. He has his biology textbook open and a notebook next to it with three lines of writing on the top of the page. His hair’s getting long again.
“Hey,” I say.
“Hey.”
I hang my jacket by the door and drop my keys in the bowl.
“Matthew in bed?”
“An hour ago. He tried to stay up for you, but I made him go to bed.”
“Okay.”
I go to the sink and run the tap and fill a glass, and the water takes a second longer to come clear than it should.
“So?” Caleb says behind me.
I turn. He’s watching me over the top of the textbook.
“So what?”
“How did it go?”
“It went.”
“Wyatt.”