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“Please, Miss, you need to calm down,” says the young woman in scrubs. Doesn’t she understand—
“WHERE IS SHE?”
The woman has this pitiful look on her face.
No.
No.
NOOOOOOOOO!
I can’t breathe.
There is no air.
I am falling.
Falling into the depth of a hell I didn’t know there was.
And then everything turns blank again.
When I wake again, I stare into neon lights on the ceiling.
My entire body feels like ice.
Impossible to move.
Frozen by the horrors in my mind.
Images.
Sounds.
The crash.
A scream.
And I cannot escape any of it.
I stare into the lights.
And the God I always thought would lead me—he has left. Everything I have done was for the love of family. To avenge what was taken. To do it right.
And now, I am lying here.
Lost.
Alone.
With nothing left but an empty shell of a body.
My fists clench.
The nails of my fingers dig into my palms.
Pain.
Pain I need to feel right now, because there is nothing else left.