Page 64 of When In Doubt

So?

Besides, it’s too late now. I already said no.

I need to keep telling myself that it was the right decision until this stomachache goes away. I unlock the front and head in, dropping my purse in its usual spot before wandering around, flicking lights on and opening the shutters.

LUCI

For the record, I’m super proud of you for that

Even if I disagree

It’s character development

FREYA

He seemed so disappointed. I feel bad.

LUCI

But you still felt able to say no?

FREYA

Yeah?

I didn’t like saying it, but I wasn’t scared to.

In all of our interactions, even if I’ve been an anxious mess, I’ve never once been fearful around him. There’s something steady there, something that makes my brain settle. I take a seat at the counter and start to power up the computer.

LUCI

Babe, I think that’s a really good sign

FREYA

So you think I should have said yes?

LUCI

It’s not like you’re agreeing to marry him

Besides, didn’t he beat up that kid for you?

I roll my eyes. I never should have told her about that.

FREYA

Yeah, but that was years ago.

LUCI

But it shows what kind of person he is

He fought your bullies!

That’s sexy

I drop my head to the desk, letting out a groan. Have I totally messed this up? That lonely feeling that never goes away starts spreading until I can feel it like frostbite in my fingers.