Page 56 of Gang of Roses: Dice

He paused, but not in a way that he wanted me to respond, but like his calculations were coming together perfectly.

“You ain’t just some woman caught up in some bullshit. You can become somebody else if you feel backed into a corner.”

This pause was different; this pause screamed that if I tried him, he would kill me with his bare hands if he had to. His eyes raked over my naked frame. There was lust, but the anger won.

“So... I’ma slide, because the last thing I wanna do is push you into becoming whoever that person is... and do some shit I can’t take back to the mother of my child.”

Without another word, he turned his back and walked out of my room.

I stood there frozen until the front door slammed. Then my naked ass finally gave out, and I plopped onto the bed.

When I heard the door slam, my heart shattered.

Coca came busting through my door.

“What the hell going on?”

“He knows.”

“Bitch, he knows what?” I said with a tear sliding down my face. It took a lot for me to shed a tear.

Coca walked to the bathroom, grabbed my shorts, and turned his back so I could slip them on.

“Everything.”

“Ahh, shit.”

“I know, right? Ahh, shit.”

I just fell back on my bed.

I thought I was gonna shake his world up, but I guess we both shook up each other’s.

Coca laid back on the bed with me, and we just stared up at the ceiling.

“As much as you hate this. Look at it like this… It’s all out there. No more lies.”

He was right.

“I guess you right…no more lies.”

“Did you get a chance to tell the girls?”

“Not yet. I decided to wait and tell the father first.”

“Listen, as much as I like the same sex, I’m still human, and I’m a man at the end of the day. Real men do real shit. I’m glad it played out like this. If you was dealing with a little boy, it would have probably gone down differently. He left like he was supposed to when pissed because them some killers, hunni. Trust me. I might be gay, but I’m real Glo, and I would have done the same shit with all this at my feet.”

Coca filled me in on what all went down before I got here and how Oats was attentive to my baby while we were back here talking.

Headed to more… but the damn mood just had to change.

“I’m sure Revv is sleeping because you back here.”

“Boo, Oats put that boy to sleep, and we went out back to roll up. That man was confident in his masculinity, but although he cracked jokes, his ass refused to hit it after me.

That made us laugh.

“Girl, that man said ‘Ahh, nah, In Living Color you gone smoke by yo’ damn self.”