Page 14 of Learning to Trust

“If you can’t trust me, David, this won’t work.”

"I do trust you in this, but I don't trust in a fully committed relationship. So I guess this will be different because love won't be involved."

Andrew studied me carefully. “The prick really did a number on you. Not all men are like him.”

"I know, but I'd prefer not to be involved with anyone again. I'd rather not be hurt again."

"I understand. Now ask your questions."

“We know my safe word is Monti. What are hard limits?”

"They are limits I'll list on this document that are an absolute no for you. We will also note my hard limits. I need you to be honest, and I promise you, I will not be annoyed by anything you aren't comfortable with as long as you make it clear."

"Okay, from what I've read online, hard limits for me will be choking, fisting, fire play, wax play, and anything to do with needles." I shuddered at the thought of having needles prick me all over.

"We'll visit wax play down the track because you might have the wrong impression and not realize how stimulating it can be on the body. The rest of your hard limits are also mine."

“I don’t top, ever, and you’ll find out why fairly soon. Just the thought of doing so is extremely stressful.”

Andrew raised his eyebrows. "Okay, we'll discuss that further. I may be able to help you overcome any psychological issues or recommend someone who can."

"Trust me; the issue is physical, not psychological. Getting back to limits—I'm fine with oral and swallowing, spanking, being blindfolded, butt plugs, hair pulling to reinforce your control and dominance, and being restrained with rope. I'd probably be willing to try other things we can discuss when we get to them."

“Have you done any of this with any other sexual partner?”

I shook my head. “No, my sex has always been pretty vanilla and not particularly stimulating.”

“I can guarantee you’ll certainly have a different experience with me when we fuck. Where do you stand on obeying my instructions?”

"I prefer not to be ordered around in public, but a frown when you don't want me to do something is acceptable. In private, I need you to be in control so I can relax and not have to be constantly thinking."

As we had spoken, Andrew typed into the computer.

“What about you, Andrew? Is there anything that gets you genuinely angry that I’ll need to avoid?”

Andrew thought about my question before answering.

"I'm not the type to become angry, but disobedience does annoy me, and I won't hesitate to punish."

“How often can we be together?”

Again, Andrew took a few moments before answering.

“I think it would be best not to set specific times to be together. I would rather you come to me when you need relief or if you are over-stressed. I will also come to you if the urge arises, which I’m sure it will. I do have one hard and fast rule that I will not compromise—”

It was my turn to raise my eyebrows at the seriousness of Andrew’s tone.

“Fucking will only ever be in the playroom at my home, and it should be ready in a week or so, or in a private room at the club. I don't partake in public displays. You will never spend the night in my bed. While we are together, there will be no other sexual partners for either of us—I don't share. I will use a condom until we get tested, but then I would prefer to fuck bare. Unless that is an issue?" Why the fuck did I want to take David’s ass with nothing between us? I’d never considered it with anyone else.

"I'm clean. Tristan and I never fucked without a condom because I always suspected he was cheating. I'll be happy to retest. I have no issue with you fucking me bare, and to be honest, I'll look forward to the experience."

“Good, I’ll book our tests for next week.” Andrew glanced at the watch on his wrist. “We’re due at the club. I asked for a room to be available for the afternoon. Do you have any other questions before we head down there?”

"Not at the moment, but I suspect I will have some once we're at the club."

"From this point, you will behave as my Sub. I expect respect at all times. The club is not to be regarded as a public place since Dom/sub behavior and open displays of affection are expected and accepted. Questioning my instruction would cause others to see me as a weak Dom and cause me embarrassment.”

"I understand. When I referred to a public place, I meant at a restaurant, the movies, a party with friends, or something similar."