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Hey, I’ve still got time. Seriously,

though, sure, it’s bothered me.

But we don’t always get what

we want. I didn’t get to be a star,

but I did get to be something

special—your mom’s husband.

And your father. Those things mean

more to me than hosting late-night TV.

“Seriously? Because sometimes

you seem resentful. Not that I blame

you. You didn’t ask for me.”

The potatoes join the roast in the oven.

You’re right. We didn’t ask for you.

But I have never resented becoming

your father. Your mom and I made

that choice willingly, with our eyes

wide open. Yes, sometimes I get mad

about things beyond my control.

Not that it’s useful or changes

anything. It’s just human nature.

Anger is a valid emotion. It’s only

bad when it takes control and makes

you do things you don’t want to do.

I GUESS I CAN’T BLAME ANGER

For the Leah incident.

Lack of self-control isn’t

always about being pissed.

Sometimes it’s sheer greed.

Something Dad said filters

back to me now.