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Life bends you.

Love breaks you.

Hope fogs your mind and then shows itself for

what it really is, just a little cloud that doesn’t

permit you to see reality clearly.

I am so worn down by what’s happened and

wrapped in clouds of dark thoughts. I raise my

glance and her eyes capture me, they tie me to her

and drag me to her feet.

After having held my breath and my rage for

hours, I completely melt in her arms where I fall

hard without thinking of the consequences.

She holds me tight and whispers words I don’t

hear with my ears but which have a healing effect

on my open, bleeding wounds.

Lost and insecure … You found me, you found

me … Lyin’ on the floor … Surrounded,

surrounded.

The words of the song playing in the pub reveal

what has been hidden to my own eyes. What I

didn’t want to see or understand. What I denied

with all my heart.

There it is, damn it.

There’s my hope.

Sheis my hope.

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“Shh … everything’s alright.”

I rest my head on her shoulder and just let it go.

My tears fall and in so doing unknot that twisted

mass that had me suffocating in a terrible excuse