Page 33 of Can't Let You Go

Fallon nods in agreement. “I think it will be fun. If you can find someone for her, you should come.”

“I’ll try,” I snap, already irritated that I have to ask my family for more help.If I can get over my stupid guilt,I think to myself. “I need to get going.” I jerk a thumb over my shoulder in the direction of the parking lot.

“Right,” she responds, her posture deflating.Great, now I feel like even more of an asshole than I already am. “I’ll see you later?”

I agree, and say goodbye, and then I’m heading out the door to my car. I can sense her eyes on me as I walk away, and know I hurt her feelings after opening up to her the way I did during that phone call, but I don’t have the mental capacity to deal with that right now. I climb in my car and notice a bunch of messages in the group chat with my brothers.

Beau

**sends photo of Arlo and Ariel**

Look at how freaking cute my kids are.

Thomas

So cute.

Though, they still kinda look like wrinkly old men.

Beau

**sends photo of Arlo with his middle finger up**

Andrew

Dude, did you make your infant flick us off?

Maybe I need to have a kid so I can make them flick you off.

Beau

You guys are ridiculous.

But yeah, you guys totally should have a kid. It’s amazing. Jase gets it.

I get it.

Yeah, it’s amazing, but Beau also has an amazing partner to share it with. I’m doing this alone.

Beau

See? He gets it.

Andrew

Maybe I should ask Josie if she’s ready to have a baby.

Thomas

Anyone want to go for a drink tonight? I’m bored.

Can’t. If I’m going to ask Mom and Dad to watch Lennie next weekend for a conference Isaac invited me to, I don’t want to make them watch her tonight too.

Andrew